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Buddy Mccandless Poem
Analyze this dream for me - Tell me what this means to me
One more pill to make me sleep - or one to stay awake
Change this nightmare, please, for me - Take the pain away from me
Bend so far - so much at stake - Bend too far to f---ing break
Blood shot eyes, I'm so damned tired - Don't want to sleep - Afraid to sleep
Candle burns beside my bed - you never said goodbye
I dream about you when I sleep, I miss you so - Why did you go?
So alone without you here, but too damned tired to cry
Everywhere, I see your face - Another pill - I've lost the thrill
Too far away to hear your voice - A whisper blown away
Every night the bad dreams come - so far from home & so alone
i'd give my life & my last breath to hear the words you'd say
Whisper once again to me, " I love you so - I'll never go "
In my arms & in my dreams, but only in my mind
Time again - I need the sleep - to fall asleep - fall too damned deep
In my heart & to the bone - something I thought I'd find
Once again, into my eyes - from blue to gray - don't go away
I promise you I won't let go until the day I die
A sad, sad song beside a grave - An ode to life - goodbye, my wife
A rainy day - A eulogy - with no one there to cry
A simple stone lost in the weeds - flush with the ground - will not be found
A flower dried up in a vase that lies, now, on it's side
Looking at an empty screen - deep in a dream - I heard a scream
Waking up, I realize - A dream - I never died
To my left & in your sleep - breath in my ear - I feel you there
The nightmare never goes away - A pill to stay awake
in your face & in your eyes - A promise there - an answered prayer
But still, the nightmare tells me that my heart is going to break.
Copyright © Buddy Mccandless | Year Posted 2006
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Buddy Mccandless Poem
If I died tomorrow - would you miss me much?
Or would you just remember that I ruin everything I touch?
Your world's way too fast for me - leave me where I am
Don't waste your time involved with me, I pray - don't give a damn
Don't tell me it will be alright - don't want alright no more
I'm sick & tired of everything - Broken - lost & sore
I can't remember anything - that I've done for you
It's your mistake to care for me I'll f::: that up too.
I really care, but that's too much, for me to maintain
So I'll push away with words - unconsciously I'll strain
I'll struggle without meaning to, one day you'll hate me
I'll push until you walk away ---- eventually, you'll see
I'll say something I shouldn't have - insults you won't believe
The messed up f:::ing sh:: I'll say will make you want to leave
I'd rather get it over with than fall apart so slow
Than watch you walk away one day - you will my friend, I know
Heartbroken, I'll hold back the tears, but I'll feel the pain
Desperation clings to me --- an endless spreading stain
I'll lay awake & long to hear the promise in your words
All thru the day I'll stare, eyes blank - but don't think you've gone unheard
I hate the fact that I'm this way or even that I live
You are everything to me ---- the reason that I live
You're the reason that I wake --- The reason that I pray
Instead of losing everything...
I'd rather die today.
Copyright © Buddy Mccandless | Year Posted 2006
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