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If I died tomorrow - would you miss me much? Or would you just remember that I ruin everything I touch? Your world's way too fast for me - leave me where I am Don't waste your time involved with me, I pray - don't give a damn Don't tell me it will be alright - don't want alright no more I'm sick & tired of everything - Broken - lost & sore I can't remember anything - that I've done for you It's your mistake to care for me I'll f::: that up too. I really care, but that's too much, for me to maintain So I'll push away with words - unconsciously I'll strain I'll struggle without meaning to, one day you'll hate me I'll push until you walk away ---- eventually, you'll see I'll say something I shouldn't have - insults you won't believe The messed up f:::ing sh:: I'll say will make you want to leave I'd rather get it over with than fall apart so slow Than watch you walk away one day - you will my friend, I know Heartbroken, I'll hold back the tears, but I'll feel the pain Desperation clings to me --- an endless spreading stain I'll lay awake & long to hear the promise in your words All thru the day I'll stare, eyes blank - but don't think you've gone unheard I hate the fact that I'm this way or even that I live You are everything to me ---- the reason that I live You're the reason that I wake --- The reason that I pray Instead of losing everything... I'd rather die today.