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If I died tomorrow - would you miss me much?
Or would you just remember that I ruin everything I touch?
Your world's way too fast for me - leave me where I am
Don't waste your time involved with me, I pray - don't give a damn
Don't tell me it will be alright - don't want alright no more
I'm sick & tired of everything - Broken - lost & sore
I can't remember anything - that I've done for you
It's your mistake to care for me I'll f::: that up too.
I really care, but that's too much, for me to maintain
So I'll push away with words - unconsciously I'll strain
I'll struggle without meaning to, one day you'll hate me
I'll push until you walk away ---- eventually, you'll see
I'll say something I shouldn't have - insults you won't believe
The messed up f:::ing sh:: I'll say will make you want to leave
I'd rather get it over with than fall apart so slow
Than watch you walk away one day - you will my friend, I know
Heartbroken, I'll hold back the tears, but I'll feel the pain
Desperation clings to me --- an endless spreading stain
I'll lay awake & long to hear the promise in your words
All thru the day I'll stare, eyes blank - but don't think you've gone unheard
I hate the fact that I'm this way or even that I live
You are everything to me ---- the reason that I live
You're the reason that I wake --- The reason that I pray
Instead of losing everything...
I'd rather die today.
Copyright © Buddy Mccandless | Year Posted 2006
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