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Alicia Green Poem
I finally let go of the man. That was toxic to my life. Got tired of being treated as if i didnt matter only to feed his sorry ego. Got tired of working it out and fighting over the most stupidest things. God heal this Heart and help me move on cause i wanna be happy single. I lost so much love in myself trying to fight for a man that was lazy in loving me. Then waiting in the parking lot of my place to get my Attention when i tell him im done. When will my happiness start. When will i be free within this stressed out soul to experience the joy i deserve. I Deserve a man that deserves me im not perfect but id rather be alone then with someone and feel lonely. Showers from the water drops to my feet i star at the gloss of my skin and think. I Allowed him to make me feel worthless. Unhappy just for the sake of saying i had someone because i feared of being alone. Now im single wothmy cat and its peaceful. But show me the side of life i deserve to live cause i need it. Newly single from a 3 year Relationship with a mommas boy free my entire soul from the hate and have me skate on the path to estacy. Help me to pray more do what i enjoy. Help me get to know me more and fall inlove with me. God help me prepare myself to be a better woman then send me my adam. Because he is missing his rib.
Copyright © Alicia Green | Year Posted 2017
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Growing up as innocent as a New Born child Knowing no Wrong About the world. I Found My self Falling..... looking for the love of in all the wrong places not a christan bone in my Body.. Recieveing texted messages and Phone Calls that would Make my parents Blush. Im far from a saint..... I Just got so big headed in thinking i know it all. Abusive relationships Had knifes put to my Throat to even Being choked out as the man who claimed he loved me tryed to advertise me to his Brother.. Still looking for love i didn't quit. i figured through my pain someone will love me turning pages in my Book that lead me to a place of self hate my confidence dropped.. giving my love for love but only received hate. Im tired so when you see me in church praying Dont judge me because we all have a story. i Been Dragged. to picked up and tossed to the shreader time and time again. lost so much faith in god Because i believed if he loved me so much then why would he let me suffer. Im the Deacons
Daughter dont mean that i'm a saint so judge me and be judged...
Copyright © Alicia Green | Year Posted 2013
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As i dive into a pool of my own blood with sweat in tears i hope to see a sign from u. i cry and ask god to shine his light to guide and see me through. i ball up as i hit the floor drowning in my own sorrow as i black out i see visions of you preying to find me so i fight to make it. your tears. glow as i see the reflection of your soul swiming past my depression and floating me up so i can breathe if u shall find me. i pray you bleed the blood of god. and use the power of his word to heel my heart. if u shall seek me i pray that u guard me all of me with your heart protect me through god and shield me. if you are destined and fate leads you to me i pray that god gives u the word to stay. im imperfect for years i fought in hopes of u finding me for i know the thoughts god thinks of me. plans to give me a future and a hope i believe i have faith he will heal me. if u shall want me you will take me as i am. breath life into my doubts and smile at my fears Embrace me with your love through god u reach for me. pray with me. take me to a place where only god has us in mind. guide your words in the directions of my flaws. faithfully inspire to be my only. and walk hand and hand with me in the darkness. if u shall see me you see a good thing and u will know that im your queen. and through god eternally we are together. if u shall find me show me a sign that u hear my cry. pray for me if u come in my presents.
Copyright © Alicia Green | Year Posted 2015
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I Used to be this girl that was so concieted. taking pics of myself always saying how
beautiful i looked to my self and was told that all the time. a couple years go past i look in
the mirror and hate what i see. from being harrased about my gender at work from
coworkers to managers and then having it happen in my personal life took a toll on my
confidence.. when i look into a mirror i see what they see. hearing people ask is that a
man. tore me down because i use to drop to my knees at work asking god whats wrong
with me. looking at myself saying ewww hating myself picking on myself for what others
saw. dont be blinded by what you see in the pic. lord knows im all woman. i just want the
ignorance to stop. thinking if i popped a bottle of pills and ended my life it all will go away i
couldnt take it.. but god told me that im still alive for a reason and i can over come this..
crying to my past boyfriend. to hearing his mom whispering mean things about me to her
son. but never telling him i knew.. thinking if i layed across a table to get surgery then it all
will go away. still nothing helped me get through this pain.. i havent went through this all
my life and to go through it now bothers me who am i?
Copyright © Alicia Green | Year Posted 2013
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Alicia Green Poem
The Desires swim through my head. Where is my Sanity the wanting to be faithful. Addicted to Affection leaves me wanting to feel the touch. Of a friend who craves for my hunger. Starving for the need of lust. Its not about sex but the touch that gives my body the goose bumps it needs to fuel. My Soul with the feeling of being high. Added kisses and licking on my body keeps me trembling on impaimpact. I dont need sex feed me Affection let me explode. From the need of it. As i slowly undress my boyfriend his touch gives me the drive to climb him so high. He comes down in the flesh when i take over his body. Gimme my Drug. Im Addicted.
Copyright © Alicia Green | Year Posted 2016
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When i look into his eyes and times are good my soul smiles. I love my boyfriend but im not true to him. Im unfaithful occasionally because he stop putting in effort to love me. Im wrong but in the presents of my mr-Desire i feel Good. No emotions exchanged for him the next morning i shower knowing he wants me to stay. Then i go back intonthe world of a woman who looks at her boyfriend with disgust sexually he is lazy. He holds me only when i ask. He sometimes over shadows my feelings so i can listen to his heart once in a blue moon i exscape. And go into the world of wanting sexually whats not mine. I cry sympathy tears for myself in the break of dawn for the hurt i cause. I know what i want in somebody. I fear rejection and being unwanted by the man i put first. Sleeping with the enemy in his presents Sometimes i feel alone. Cold and unappreciated. When times are Good and we both smile i adore my boyfriend. Im unfaithful to him our relationship is built on a lie. Cause im unhappy and i want him to know from my actions when i argue and fight with him to push him away but he wont go. All the hope i put into loving my boyfriend killed my desires of seeing a future with him. Im not free im not loved like i want to. I want to be true but his way of loving me isnt what i want. Im lonely im confused and i just wanna do right.
Copyright © Alicia Green | Year Posted 2016
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A Void in my Reflection. When i look at myself i see a Woman i cant except. My skin is like melted milk chocolate poured over Soft flesh and Bones. That fell out of the hands of God as he tryed to put me on a Gold platter for for people to see. Praising the beauty of his sculpted Creation he made my eyes the shape of Almonds with the glow of his light inside. My moles are Signatures Of his love on my face. My Back is the long map of my existence. I cant stand the sight of stares in my face as i walk past of people. Because i never Realized my Worth. I cryed plenty of tears Because i thought Gods Art of me Was Ugly. Always feeling like i was the void of my Reflection Because the Correct image of me was in my past life. Feeling like that left me drained and unhappy. Depressed and i abused who i was For the sake of other peoples thoughts. I aint who i want to be but im not who i was. Comparing the Woman i am to many other Woman. Asking God why me? He Said i made you with all the love i had in me. I Formed you in the pits of my heart. I created you to with stand the hate of those who prosecute you for they Did me. And i live Strong inside of you. And that is why they hate the Reflection of you Because they hated the sight of me. Draw a Void in the negative Thoughts the world has put upon you as i stand at the other side of your reflection with you. And you will see The Beauty i have casted onto you. I have never forsaken you. I just made you Trust in the light that i gave you strength to be stronger.
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As I lay here pull me close kiss my neck young kiss my inner thighs taste my water fall as u touch my body. Watch me moan for u as my hand pushes your head down on my mystery. Make love to me take control over my body and dive inside me with your love stroke me to a deep explosion make my legs shake HOLD me close tell me u want me that I'm sex and that I'm all u crave take my love send my body into a world of estaCy give me every inch of u fast or slow. For the moment my body bbelongs to u make love to me.
Copyright © Alicia Green | Year Posted 2015
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As i sit and watch the rain fall on my windows i gaze at how peacefully the sounds of the water dropping drip by drip. I observe my tears drip Down. And drip away in my Soul as i see my self dancing in the rain of a bright future finally at peace to feel the passion of Devotion placed at my feet with the actions of my flesh putting in all the work to make it in life. I strive each day for better giving my heart enough time to lounge in the chair underground so i can get my mind in shape. Imaging ways to be creative in my own mind being diffrent from any other woman u may see but still be me gracefully.
Copyright © Alicia Green | Year Posted 2016
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I use to think of Desires and plant them in the seed of my thoughts. To customize a vision i wanted into reality until i got it. My Brain was Shocked that my Body didnt get the message because there was no love in the mist of the fantasy so it left me feeling empty. As Dull as the the Color Grey. When love danced within my soul the passion felt unreal. But only in the presents of the person i was inlove with. My Love is Undefined. It is Delicate. It is Worthy of Eternal Bliss. To wake up in the life of Whats Real and not to seek any thrills of lust for just one night. I want more Striving to Build all the love within me. Im Determined to not let anyone get near me. If for once and all eternity if he is real let the reflection of God show me How he should love me Before he seeks his Destiny in me. I dont wanna Be The rain to the Desires of a man. Give me his heart so i can see his intentions. Cause if his soul aint in it then my exsistance wont be in the shadows of his Presents. Prepare me lord through you. Before the Man im Destined to be finds me... #Embrace
Copyright © Alicia Green | Year Posted 2017
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