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Ef Kaye Poem
And now I look down at her, her serene, angelic face
And the slight smile on her lips that has stayed
I think of how peaceful she looks,
In her death, all of her pain has been taken away
The pain has been passed on to me,
But I accept this suffering in all humility
Knowing she suffered much worse and far more,
Forever her pain is now a grander part of me
Now life's worth just our memories,
Everyday I relive them, our precious love story
I see her everyday, in the smiles of our four children,
I look forward to their visits, that's what keeps me going
Once I had thought I wouldn't last long,
Would die the very second she was gone
But I'm stronger now, facing her death and this emptiness in my life,
With the strength and courage to me, she passed on.
Every night my love, when I go to sleep,
I feel u lying next to me,
And everyday on my morning walks, I feel this tinkling in my palm,
As if u were there, holding my hand,
And then I look down and see...your invisible footprints in the sand.
I smile a little smile then, I knew u couldn't leave,
After all, you promised me eternity
And It's your presence in my life, that even after you died, has helped me stay alive
And it's your aura around me, that has helped me survive,
The biggest blow God gave me,
When He took you, 'Sabera'...the love and joy of my life, away from me.
Copyright © Ef Kaye | Year Posted 2012
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I want to right, all the wrongs that make u cry,
I want to fight for u against the racing time
I don't want to lose, not until I try
And I know u won't give up too, not without one hell of a fight.
Just when we had reached a point of no return,
He made us stop and made u turn,
You were all I had, my most prized possession,
But He decided u die...oh His one decision
Oh my Lord, your one decision,
Has changed the very course of my life
Without her by my side, how do You expect me to survive.
Without her such radiant smile, how do You expect me to feel alive.
She loves me so much and doesn't want me to hurt
So she's not letting go, battling her illness bcoz she knows
That it would leave me stranded here, wallowing in pain
Slowly and surely her death would drive me insane
And it makes her resolve, to be brave and soldier on,
Fight her death and meet every blow head on
But the end is near and she smiles and takes my hand
She says a silent prayer for the suffering she's about to gift her man
And now I look down at her, her flawless face,
And think of how much more pain she's willing to take
I think of our lives then, so full of happiness
And I think of our lives now, so filled with turbulence
And I wonder how much inner strength she must have,
To have endured all the severe pain that she has
I just want her now to be free,
Since she's only hanging on bcoz she's afraid what what might become of me
And in her eyes I see such helplessness,
Maybe down the road, she can see the darkness
And she looks at me now,
Her teary eyes beg for my forgiveness
For she knows she's leaving me now
Her strength is now wearing her down
I can hear her silently crying, and even though she's trying,
In her heart, she knows she's dying.
Copyright © Ef Kaye | Year Posted 2012
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I've never been in love before,
I think I had opportunities though
But kept waiting for this faceless myth
Did I ignore what was written above
Did destiny come knocking
Was I too proud
Or was it just wishful thinking
Of how my future would turn out
Nothing went according to plan
I see the error in my ways
Wish I could go back into the past
And change those all important days
Did one bad choice
Alter the course of my life
Did an error in judgement
Cause me to lose my mind
Has my moment come and gone
Is a thought that plagues me
Night and day, all day long
I wonder if there's a future left to seek
I want to stand by my choices
They were mine to make
Relief is what I felt when I made them
Even if they're perceived as mistakes
But what if I was right all along
And this is what's meant to be
Maybe it's God who chose it all
And I kept blaming me
Faith in God now carries me
Hope is what keeps me going
Even though my destiny eludes me
The wait is worth what's coming
Be it death or life
Hope or despair
Love or strife
I eagerly await my fate
Copyright © Ef Kaye | Year Posted 2012
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We agreed to go our separate ways, each of us did not want to face,
The hurt we were causing each other, the pain that promised to last forever.
We had a love so special, we had it all.
And how we succumbed to pressures and our marriage took the fall.
So u went your way and I went mine, we looked at each other for one last time,
and I felt something in my heart, that I just can't define
Wanting me to stop u and make u see the pain in my eyes.
But I knew I'd lost u and had no rights like before,
And I told myself..I'm not supposed to love you anymore.
Now the nights seem darker and I'm all alone here,
It's been only a while but seems like a hundred years.
I yearn to hold u in my arms again, but I think of all the fighting and don't want to relive the pain.
Then why do I think of u all the time,
Your gorgeous eyes and beautiful smile.
U conquer my dreams like never before,
And I wake up then, to realise...I'm not supposed to love u anymore.
Now you're far away somewhere, that even if I wanted I could never find the way,
To u, to tell u I want you forever, for eternity I want our love to bind us together.
But then I hear you're happy now with someone new,
And I'm in denial bcoz we were happy too.
Now I wish u luck and pray, that u don't make the same mistakes we made.
In love and in life, I hope u get everything u wanted this time.
And I've got to accept the fact, that you're gone forever and I need to move on with my life.
Then why do I get this feeling all of the time,
That my heart feels closer to yours than ever before,
Even when..I'm not supposed to love u anymore.
Copyright © Ef Kaye | Year Posted 2012
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