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Tiffany Chavez Poem
Thinking back To the past
I always knew it wouldn’t last
You were nothing more than a dumb ass
With no class
Just a clown
Who wanted to sling his dick around
All over town
You used to keep me down
What I ever saw in you is a mystery
All you ever caused me was misery
Can’t believe how long it took me to see
You were no good for my daughter or me
All I wanted was the perfect family
But a father wasn’t something you ever wanted to be
I knew raising my baby girl was going to be up to me
And from your spell I needed to set myself free
Thank God he gave me strength to finally say so long
Finally made me see I had done nothing wrong
And it was time for my daughter and I to move on
and be strong
Without you in my life at first felt like I had been stabbed
In my back with a knife
But I began to learn that that wasn’t the way love was suppose to feel
And it was then I began to heal
But I ain’t gonna front on the real
some days were hard to deal
I had been broken you played me like a game
And I was just some token and your daughter
was just a word left unspoken
I admit it is long over due
Getting over you
To get to this day
to get rid of the hate
And finally wipe the slate
Realize this was meant by fate
before it is too late
I no longer want you to kiss my ass
I have forgiven you about the past
Today I just want to say
thank you for Giving me my daughter
Desirae Renee
Copyright © Tiffany Chavez | Year Posted 2011
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What girl you know with a flow like this
hypnotize mesmerize
with my sweet touch and kiss
the girl you let go
and an hour later you miss
got the ability to provide total bliss
like a genie in a bottle I can grant your wish
but
this female gots tails to tell
my hearts been used abused and put through hell
but I perservered
and only God knows how
always kept my faith and he gave me strength not to throw in the towel
now I am blessed and shined through some hard test never quit cause I'm determined to do my best and won't rest cause I'm on a quest to provide a good life for my daughter and son teach them not to do what I do but to learn from what I've done
Instill morals and values watch the path they decide to choose never want to see their name on the late night news cause they chose to hang with the wrong crew
let them know they're destined for greatness and got the ability to shine if they never lose who they are
they'll shine bright like the north star know determination takes people far
God gave me this family so I'd open my eyes and see these three complete me and nothing in life is free
A good mom and someday wife is who I want and long to be!*!*!*!*!*!*!*
Copyright © Tiffany Chavez | Year Posted 2011
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Tiffany Chavez Poem
Never want my kids to see what I have seen
Little girls dreams broken at the seams
They say kids don’t remember the bad things
My childhood is made up of the sad songs that people sing
Grew up in a trailer
Mommy and daddy cursed just like the sailors
They would drink until they got drunk
Their marriage wasn’t bliss
It was far from what I wished
It wasn’t like the fairy tales that always had a happy ending
In fact it needed lots of mending
As a little girl I thought it was the trailer
Things were always good until we got home
Never want my kids to witness the obscene things that I have seen
Having mommy and a daddy treat one another like bitter enemies
Childhood memories turned into horrid dreams
“Stop the fighting” as a little girl I would scream
I would sneak into to brothers room in the middle of the night
Hide under the blankets to try and block out mommy and daddy’s fight
Praying for a way to make things right
Family would talk about me and how I was mean
But they didn’t know the things I was seeing
No one knew I had a front row seat to the battle
And it was making simple emotions hard to handle.
Mommy and daddy got divorced in 1993
What was once a marriage had now become debris
But it was better this way you see
Me and my brother had been finally set free
Me not knowing brother would soon leave
I could not believe he would leave me all alone
To face the world on my own
He protected me from all the bad things
Now where would I go when I had bad dreams.
I pushed through as I grew pretended I had a clue what life was all about
Ended up pregnant and had my daughter
From a chump who will never deserve to be called her father
But its okay it was meant to be that way
So my childhood love could swoop in and save the day
Just like I prayed
yeah I admit my past has ****ed with me
but most importantly
it taught me
that this is not how I will raise my family to ever be
and I can promise they will never see
What I have seen
No broken home and obscenities.
I will raise my family right my children won’t witness
My husband and I fight.
Written by: Tiffany Chavez 6/18/10
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This crap...back and fourth...hot and cold...in and out...Too screwed up to figure out
what this is all about.
I could scream and shout...but my love remains devout... to infinite amounts without
a doubt.
Stuck in the mud...of the grave that's been dug...few moments of peace within the
few snug hugs...then shaken away like the dust on throw rugs.
Long talks...long walks...tears cried...tears dried...over lies lied.
Too stubborn...too torn... two people with a lot of pride.
Happy...sad...anxious...mad...emotions up and down...like a roller coaster ride...but
still won't subside...because he's still the one and only I'm confident to confide...but
these days wanna run and hide...tired...but faithful...hopeful...in the decision I
myself can't decide.
So I wait...try to relate...often times debate...contemplate...wish...hope...it's not to
late...to start over with a clean slate...believe in that blind faith...for my family's
togetherness sake...I'm living a nightmare...but I am awake...can't tell between fact
and fiction...true loving feelings...or fake...Texas holdem...and my heart is at stake.
So much confusion...disillusion...over one conclusion...terrified of losing...the one
that I so long ago have chosen.
Optimistic...pessimistic...i love you...I hate you...your a dick.
Confliction causing friction...wanna change this situation into fiction.
Tomorrows a year...and nothing is clear...if I was an alcoholic I'd drown the sorrows
in a beer...but instead I'll deal with what’s been dealt...shedding the warmth of my
salty tears...take a look in the mirror...and clean up the mascara that's been
smeared.
But it is what it is...one day at a time...faith...hope...no reaching for the dope...to
help me cope...put down the rope.
Pray for the best...get past this test...find a way to give my mind and heart a
rest...give him peace and patience to rest his dome...and keep the faith in him to
find his...own...way back home...so neither of us ever gotta feel alone.
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