Best Poems Written by Joshua Berry

Tug Uf War

I dont have a definition for it or even a name for it. Could it be happiness, normality, 
contintment ?

I dont know if this is real? It could be a medically induced Norm?

Is it just the feelings that live so deep inside of me that there locked behind some 
wall of medicine?

I have never felt this way before I dont know how to deal with this tug of war on my 
soul. 

My rage and addiction is still there.
 
I can feal it pulsating inside me.
 
These narcotics are the gate keepers to the fortified abyss of my psyche where 
these feelings still live and breathe waiting to explode in a disgustingly beautiful 
display of rage and emotion. 

I have felt this way for so long to feal normal scares me.
 
I feal like a newborn in a sea of sharks like I was cast out of Sparta for not looking 
the part. 

For me this gradual transformation is more like torture. 

I would honestly rather live with my inner demons then be classified as normal.

 What is normal !!?

 Who is in charge of classifying anyone as normal ? 
How can anyone put a moral classification on anything of normality!!?

 Thats like me saying your not normal for not feeling the way I do or acting the way 
I do!! 

That is insanity in itself.

Copyright © Joshua Berry | Year Posted 2011