Tug Uf War

I dont have a definition for it or even a name for it. Could it be happiness, normality, 
contintment ?

I dont know if this is real? It could be a medically induced Norm?

Is it just the feelings that live so deep inside of me that there locked behind some 
wall of medicine?

I have never felt this way before I dont know how to deal with this tug of war on my 
soul. 

My rage and addiction is still there.
 
I can feal it pulsating inside me.
 
These narcotics are the gate keepers to the fortified abyss of my psyche where 
these feelings still live and breathe waiting to explode in a disgustingly beautiful 
display of rage and emotion. 

I have felt this way for so long to feal normal scares me.
 
I feal like a newborn in a sea of sharks like I was cast out of Sparta for not looking 
the part. 

For me this gradual transformation is more like torture. 

I would honestly rather live with my inner demons then be classified as normal.

 What is normal !!?

 Who is in charge of classifying anyone as normal ? 
How can anyone put a moral classification on anything of normality!!?

 Thats like me saying your not normal for not feeling the way I do or acting the way 
I do!! 

That is insanity in itself.
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March 28, 2016 at 8:51 PM
joshua berry, you've expressed yourself well, I like the last line. Please keep writing and sharing your poetry when you have time. Love ~LINDA~
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August 10, 2015 at 11:18 PM
JOSHUA, a wonderful read.... LOVE *SKAT*
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March 28, 2011 at 4:31 AM
I would like to welcome you to PoetrySoup Joshua. Please keep writing and sharing your poetry. Enter and enjoy some of the contests and I wish you the best in them. Love, Carol
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Welcome to Poetry Soup.. enjoyed your creative write tonight.. hope your time on P.S. will be fun and filled with sharing with luv.. our contests are free so check them out and good luck luv..
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