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Spencer Coggsdale Poem
Another broken heart
another shattered dream
another helpless cry
another undeard scream
another cut to my arm
another puddle of blood
another day of self harm
another wound to flood
it kills me inside
all the feelings that i hide
i just keep them to me
so that no one else can see
see the reason for my pain
nothing will ever be the same
im tired of constantly trying
when i no deep inside im dying.
-Spencer Coggsdale dedicated to Sergio Sosa
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You left i cried
im lost inside
this pain i gain
tears fall like rain
it hurts it cuts
i miss you so much
three years have passed
im suffering atlast
realizing my pain out of no where it just hit me
wishing everyday that you'll come back to earth to get me
but your never comming back
and they'll never see me smile
due to all the love i lack
i wont be happy for awhile.
-Spencer Coggsdale dedicated to Roxanne Lynnette
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My love got rejected
my heart was missdirected
this pain he caused still hurts me strong
with no strenth left to just move on
he hurt me bad
it cut me deep
awake at night unable to sleep
overlooking the truth
im in denial
i wont be happy for awhile
how could he do this
what have i done
to deserve all this pain thats recently begun
the day i forgive him and move on without a dout
is when hes sorry for what he did
and not sorry that i found out.
-Spencer Coggsdale dedicated to Brandon Castillo
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Locked Inside
the real person is affraid
to face all the lies
and scars that i have made
lost and betraid i walk alone
my muted thoughts become unknown
i hear a voice the piercing words which linger in my head
my heart is beating but there is no pulse and i feel like im already dead
with a razor i connect the stars
which leaves the patterns of my scars
and the pain in my heart
kills the desire
to love as i watch myself burn in the fire
my heart starts to ake
as i lye there awake
and the memoreies replay
as i slowly decay
the fire burned out and left nothing but coal
as they cast the power of death on my soul..
-Spencer Coggsdale
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So many broken hearts
so many words left unsaid
lead to the black tears we cry
and every cut that once bled
bawled up in a corner
stranded in the dark
with every stroke up and down i leave a bleeding mark
abanded hope left to die
were drowning in these tears i cry
and the razor in our hands
reflects the brightness of the stars
but its not just a cut
theres a story behing the scars
if the world was a rose
wed be the thorns
life would be a book
and every page would be torn
its just another broken home
a place where no one can survive
which leads ne into cutting myself just to feel alive
i have already given up
why should i have to live a lie
but instead of suffering i just crawl into a corner
to curl up and die
-Spencer Coggsdale
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You walk into the room
like you never left
you hug me as everythings okay
i let myself forget
as i fall for you agian
i look into your eyes
you hide your pain so well
i look into your heart
my name has faded
im suddenly scared
i cant hold on forever
for nothing more than this
-Spencer Coggsdale dedicated to Sergio Sosa
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Its just what you do to me
that gets me through the day
its the smile on your face
that takes my pain away
its the love thats in my heart
for you so strong and true
so i guess im done with searching
cause i dont think ill find another boy like you
you the one thats in my head
i think of everynight
as i lie awake in my bed
loving you feels so right
i just wanna be the perfict one for you
i know we make mistakes
but i know somehow we'll make it thorugh
before my heart brakes
i just wanna know if im the only one who sees
that i am in love
or is it just what you do to me
when my world would fall apart
you would help me to survive
your like the beat of my heart
that keeps me alive
and eventhough it seems
that love is just pretend
i have to dissagree
cause your more than just a friend
your the air that i breath
the only one i believe
the only light in my world that i can see
am i in love or is it just what you do to me
-Spencer Coggsdale dedicated to Luis Arizpe
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Your smile like razors
your kiss like knives
im drowning in your love
as i struggle to stay alive
i promised not to slice
and i still continue to do my part
but the cutts arnt on my arm
the cutts are on my heart
i didnt put them there
my hearts painted black from
the darkness that it drains
it overlaps my loving heart
as your love becomes my pain
as i bleed the pain in blood
my heart begins to flood
its all gone with the sin
it leaked out through the scars
that are reopened once again.
-Spencer Coggsdale dedicated to Luis Arizpe
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You make me laugh
you make me smile
you make my life seem all worth while
you dry my tears
that have been falling for years
you hear my cry for help
that no one else hears
you get me through each day
with every word you say
you make everything seem okay
i wouldnt want it any other way
with you i feel so right
now i can see my future bright
as long as i spend it with you
theres nothing more id rather do
-Spencer dedicated to Brandon Castillo
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It hurts me
it kills me
this emptyness fills me
these memories they cut me
my arm is so bloody
my hearts barly beating
im possessed with this feeling
im loosing controle
tords the darkness i go
my cutts just wont heal
my pain just surrounds me
as im standing still
this world moves around me
im lost and alone
with a heart made of stone
waiting for the day you come back to me
but your gone and your souls free
and im suffering painfully
now im left to deal
with this pain that i feel.
-Spencer Coggsdale R.I.P ROXY
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