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Dianne Shydlinski Varner Poem
T'was the day before Christmas
Not a moment to spare
Last minute shopping
Not a parking spot anywhere
Ice and slush covering the ground
New snow falling everywhere
Gift to be purchased and wrapped
A bike to assemble
Turkey thawing in the sink
Pies in the oven baking
Children hyper and underfoot
Hubby sampling the rum balls
And getting sloushed
The dog chased the cat up the Christmas tree
Balls falling everywhere
Someone knocking at the door
Children screaming
Dog barking
Cat meowing
"I've hat it! No more can I take!"
Not a sound could be heard
They all skattered like mice
For it was havndling everything
That gave me my Christmas Breakdown
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Dianne Shydlinski Varner Poem
We Choose to Stay Together
We choose to stay together
Even though we’re far apart
Joined by the tether of
Our children and longing of the heart
We could not face the pain
That giving up would bring
And so we must sustain
Our love despite our suffering
You are my savior prince
Whom I will not betray
Nor be your subject any less
You are close at hand but yet far away
Through the rivers may run swift
The mountains turn into dust
I’ll wait as the years give away
Because I simply must
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Dianne Shydlinski Varner Poem
As I sit here in the middle of our bed
I stair at my med bottles
Tears streaming down my face
My heart laying at my feet
Shattered and broken into a zillion pieces
My thoughts so confusing
My emotions ragging out of control
And so overwhelming
My vision so unclear
Hurt and pain engulf my body
This hell I am in here and now
Is all because of you
Everything you taught me now destroyed
Trust broken
Heart shattered
World destroyed
This hell is becoming almost to much for me to bare
I am trying to be fair to everyone
I am trying to be strong
But without you I don’t know if I can survive
You say I did nothing wrong
How can the be
When your love for me is gone
I don’t know what to do or say
For you to change your heart and mind and stay
No matter what I do or say
I am the one who hurts and looses
This pain keeps hurting more and more each day
My love for you will always remain
There are only two ways I see to end this awful hurt and pain
One for you to come back to me and love me again
Two to end this hurt, pain and suffering for good
To take all my meds and walk away to die on my own
The first unfair to you
The last unfair to our children
I pray that the good Lord watches over me
And shows me another path
For I am afraid that I will end this pain for me
Only to cause a lifetime of hurt and pain for our children
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Dianne Shydlinski Varner Poem
When I close my eyes
I see us together
Wrapped in a warm loving embrace
You are kissing me
You are caressing me
Our hearts beating as one
Time seems to be standing still
You are loving me again
No other fills your heart
You whisper in my ear
“Baby I am sorry for everything
You are the only one that I want and love”
My heart skips a beat
As tears roll down my face
God has sent you back to me
I open my eyes
And you are gone and no longer there
No longer mine
For you love and are with another
Tears run down my face
As reality sets in again
My heart and mind shredded and shattered once again
Pain and heartbreak consumes me
I reach out for the only thing that remains of you
Your pillion, you scent lingers there
I hold it tight to my chest
It is all that I have left of you along with the memories
I wish the vision I see when I close my eyes was real
I pray to God for him to send you back to me
To make you mine for the rest of time
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Dianne Shydlinski Varner Poem
There are times that I have not felt whole
There have been times when life has left me down on my knees
No understanding as to why
Struggling threw the darkness
I finaly found the light in the darkness
That was when I had found you
You turned my life and world around
The light you brough into my world
Chased away the darkness that once was there
You give me love, laughter, happiness and so much more
If I lost you
There would no longer be light in my life
I would be like a bird flying with no place to land
A lost soul without any peace
A dreamer without any dreams
I poet with nothing to write
I have had so many lost's in my life
I can handle loosing most anything
But if I lost you
I am not sure if I could survive
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Dianne Shydlinski Varner Poem
Why baby why
Why are you doing this to me
Why are you hurting me this way
I have been faithful
I have been true
I have loved you unconditionally
I have been fair
I have been beside you no matter what
Why baby why
You taught me to trust
Only for you to break it
You taught me to love and to be loved
Only for you to betray it
I gave you my heart and soul
Only for you to shatter and destroy it
Why baby why
Why did you stop loving me
What did I do so wrong
Can’t you see what this is doing to me
Why baby why
What does she give you that I am not
She is over on the other side of the united states
It’s not like you are going to have the money to go to her
What can I say and do
For you to come back to me
Why baby why
Can’t we talk about it
Can’t we try to save our marriage
Can’t you stay and try
Why baby why
Baby just remember even tough I am hurting, shattered and bruised
Baby I will always love you
Baby I will always be here waiting for you to come back home
Why baby why
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Dianne Shydlinski Varner Poem
I tremble at the touch of your sweet tender and loving touch
When I look into those loving eyes
I realize just how lucky I am
You have shown me love like I have never known before
There is nothing in this world I would not do for you
I had almost given up hope
Of having someone of my own to love me
Then you entered into my world
You took this empty shell of a person
And made me whole
I never would have dreamed for someone like you
I could not have asked for anything more
Every day I thank the Lord above for sending you to me
The first time we held each other close
I knew that this was real
I wake each morning knowing and feeling your love
I love you more with each passing day
As the years pass by
There will be many tears and sorrows
Many ups and downs
But I know for sure what ever happens
I will have you standing there beside me
Our hair will turn grey
We will have grown old
But our love will remain strong and true
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