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Damaris Balderas Poem
She was only 4 years old, too young to understand, she felt so confused and scared as he grabbed her by her hand.
He took her to his room, he said he wanted to play, she was only 4 years old when he took her innocence away.
He said if she told anyone, he would be really sad, because no one would believe her, and she'd get punished bad.
She ended up telling, but nothing was done, they just made the guy leave, then moved in another one.
Some time went by, then it happened again, but this time when she told, that's when her nightmare began.
They actually blamed her, using a lame excuse, they said the way she sat down when she played, caused all the abuse.
Long story short, it happened throughout her childhood, by multiple men, until the age of 12 when she finally understood.
That it wasn't her fault, and after so long, she no longer felt cursed, and she finally felt strong...
So she started to defend herself, because no one seemed to care, when she needed protection, nobody was there.
Her mom had two jobs and didn't give her much attention, she got everything she wanted, but what she needed was affection.
Fast forward to the present, her heart is filled with pain, she cant seem to be happy and guess who's to blame?
You could blame it on her father, that left when she was just a baby, he forgot he had a daughter and started acting shady.
You could blame it on those bullies, that made school a living hell, they would put her down, and there was no one she could tell.
You could blame it on those perverts, that showed her no respect, she was just a little girl, but she'll never forget.
You could blame those who judged her, when she was just a teen, they labeled her as easy, they brought down her self-esteem.
She turned to drugs to deal with the pain, by the age of 14 she was addicted to weed and cocaine.
When she turned 15 she became addicted to meth, she didn't know her worth, she was just waiting for death.
Her family failed her, society too, if this was your daughter, what would you do?
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I hate my thoughts, my mind ain’t alright,
It’s a freaking battle and i'm losing the fight.
I can’t change my past, or the mistakes that I've made,
Whenever I make progress, it all starts to fade.
My insecurities are bigger than me, they take over my mind,
I overthink everything, and I become blind..
Blind to reality, so I give into temptation,
but then i keep going because my kids are my motivation.
I get sidetracked so easily, I don't get things done,
I overwhelm myself, before I've even begun.
I have no agency, I can't choose anymore,
I'm a slave to my addiction, that keeps me wanting more.
It’s a never ending cycle, that i need to break,
I already know the steps that I need to take.
I just need the strength that only God can give,
I wanna keep trying, because I wanna live.
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Stop doubting yourself, you can handle any situation,
believe in yourself and find motivation.
Push yourself harder, you have the strength to conquer all,
don't beat yourself up over anything, because it’s okay to fall.
Pick yourself right back up, and hold your head up high, be as happy as you can be, there ain't no time to cry.
Because life is too short, and you have to live, tell yourself you're good, until you can believe.
That your happiness depends on you, so show yourself you care, don't let nothing distract you, until you get there.
Once you make it, please never forget, this is the best thing you can do, and you’ll never regret.
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I start to type a message,
but I leave it incomplete,
cuz I know you won’t even read it
so I just hit delete.
I guess I let my guard down,
and now I’m paying the price,
I’m over here feeling stupid
for believing all your lies.
You told me everything
that I wanted to hear,
I’m so dumb for thinking
that you would be here.
I should’ve known better
I should’ve trusted my gut,
but I didn’t see it coming
It’s just my bad luck.
What did I do wrong?
For you to change this way…
At least give me a reason
If you ain’t gonna stay.
But I wish you the best
in everything you do
I hope you find happiness
and all your dreams come true.
I will heal from this,
I guess I gotta learn,
I gotta let my feelings out
and I gotta let them burn.
You are still young
and have a bright future ahead,
you deserve nothing but good things,
but for me love is dead.
But I’ll be alright
at the end of the day
the sun shines for everyone,
I will be okay.
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Heavenly Father be my strength, please be my motivation
I can't do it alone, I can't reach my destination.
I need you more than ever, I need to feel your grace,
Take me all my burdens. take me out of this dark place.
My heart is so broken, possibly beyond repair,
I don't wanna die, destined to feel despair.
You're a loving God, and I don't have a doubt you're there
I really need to know you hear me, I need your love and care.
I am your child, the one you claim to love
I want to get to know you, I want some of that mercy you always speak of.
So guide my path and please don't let go
heal my heart, I need to know
that though I may not be worthy, I can feel your love too,
I want to love you back and truly serve you.
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Dear Lord, I'm so tired, things just aren’t going my way,
it just keeps getting harder and harder, every single day.
It’s problem after problem, i don't know what to do,
i ask you for help, but my cries don't seem to reach you.
Or maybe it’s your will, because you know what’s best,
maybe I need to learn something, so I get put to the test.
I need your mercy, I need your peace,
I really need you to hear me, and help me heal please.
I know you’ve never left my side, and you’ve always been there,
I just didn’t see it, but I know you care.
Heavenly Father, what am I doing wrong?
Can't you hear my prayers? Its been so long.
Am I destined to hell? Or what am I paying for?
I know your timing is perfect, but I can't deal with the pain anymore.
I also know that one day, all this will make sense,
or maybe I'm not worthy, and this is my penitence.
Whatever it may be, Lord please dont leave my side,
i know my babies need me, i need you to be my guide.
I can't let them down, i gotta hide this pain,
they don’t understand, it’s so hard to maintain.
I know they hurt too, and they worry about me,
cuz im all they have, please Lord hear my plea.
To please make me better, and help me out of this situation,
help me be strong, so I can resist temptation.
I need to be a good example, so they can have a chance
to have a better life, i need a different cirumstance.
I want my kids to make it, i dont want them to have my struggles,
you know all my battles, please take all my troubles.
Please give me the strength, I need to keep going,
i need to know you hear me, i cant live just unknowing.
I have faith in you… I know your timing is right,
Please don’t forget me, and I know ill be alright.
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Don’t tell me you love me
If you really don’t,
I can’t say that I love myself,
but it doesn’t mean that I won’t.
It’s a slow process
and it’s gonna take all I got,
I have to learn how to love myself
because it seems like I forgot.
I’m a good person,
I have have so much to give,
I won’t do you dirty,
as long as I live.
You’ll hurt me real bad,
If you ever lie,
I’m a sensitive person
I easily cry.
I like to be humble,
but that don’t mean I’m weak,
don’t mess with my kids,
cuz I’ll turn gangsta quick.
But I’ll tell you one thing,
if your faithful and true,
No one else in this world,
will love you like I do.
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Tomorrow will be the day,
The day everything will be okay
And when tomorrow is here,
I’d like to have you near
So we can laugh like before
And this time we won’t separate anymore.
We will talk about the old days
N how much we loved each other always
And even though you had to part,
I’ve carried you in my heart.
And then i will see,
That you’ve been here with me
Oh how happy we will be.
Tomorrow will be the day,
The day ill be okay.
The day i get to hear your voice
Lord knows i will rejoice.
Cuz u were my best friend
I cant wait till tomorrow,
cuz the waiting will end.
I love you best friend
Always and forever,
And just like in this life,
In the next we’ll be together.
We’ll laugh and play,
Just like before
Only this time
We won’t separate no more.
Copyright © Damaris Balderas | Year Posted 2026
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I can’t do this anymore
I’m going insane
I can’t even think right
There’s joy and there’s pain.
So many emotions
That are so damn contradicting,
Each day was so amazing,
But now it’s so predicting.
It’s like a roller coaster
emotions running high,
and then all of the sudden
I can’r enjoy the ride.
At times you mean the world to me
When you act like you care,
`but other times you don’t mean
cuz you ain’t even there.
If you really did love me,
like you alway say you do,
I wouldn’t be asking myself
what I really mean to you.
I act like i don’t care.
but i ain’t that tough,
Iv’e been faithful and true
but i guess it that’s not enough.
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I can not think
I lose my focus
I hate my thoughts
they’re freaking bogus.
My mind is so stupid
So i shut it down
It always listens to my heart
Every time around.
Cuz i end up hurt,
Or in some kind of trouble,
Every time i think,
My chances are double.
Im so weak
When it comes to my heart
I see things different
Then it all falls apart.
If my brain
Ignored my feelings
It would of spared me
So many freaking dealings
With a lot of idiots
That just pretend
To be around
Because they're my friend
And it’d pay attentions
To the rer flags
But instead of that
It always lags
Maybe i just need to learn
to just embrace
Cuz i have a good heart
That no one can replace.
My mind is so weak
but my heart is so good
I have good intentions
But i'm also so hood.
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