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Veronica Perez Poem
I feel as time is slipping away. I lost my father a couple weeks ago. I lost my mother 9
years ago. I have obviously experienced loss in my life but when my father passed i felt as if
everything was slowly slipping away. I loved him. I admired him. I saw how strong his
commitment to his family was to his children to his wife. He was a father to many. I
breakdown every time his name is brought up. I can't seem to move. I know he is gone but i
can't find reason within to accept it. I remember when my mother died it was a Sunday it
was fathers day. I felt nothing so she was gone life goes on right. So i didn't cry. I didn't
mourn her death. I didn't care for her I always saw her as a selfish woman. She sacrificed
me for her own sanity. I hated her for everything she did and everything she said. The way
she would look at me as if sickened by my sight. My cries meant nothing to her. My screams
filled with fear and agony meant nothing to her. She was cold. My father was warm. He
comforted me. He didn't push me away. He didn't ignore me. He listened. He didn't hate me.
He was a wonderful and not a day goes by that i don't think of him. I miss him and i don't
know how to say goodbye. I don't know what to do anymore. I always knew life wasn't that
fairytale everyone tries to paint for you as a child. I just never lost anyone close to me. I
have felt pain since i could remember. I learned to cry before i learned to smile. losing him
has made me realize true pain, true grief, and true loss.
Copyright © Veronica Perez | Year Posted 2010
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Veronica Perez Poem
I have never been anyones first choice. I have always been second choice. Im always the other
women, the mistress, home wrecker, etc.... I don't why i have never been good enough for
anybody. Im never going to be good enough for anyone. I don't understand why, and i wont
ever understand it because their is no one here with me to tell me why. Im all alone and i
believe that it will stay that way. I guess my mother and brother were right i wont ever be
anything or anyone to anybody. I tried to prove my self that i could do this on my own, but im
lonely and im tired.
Copyright © Veronica Perez | Year Posted 2010
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Veronica Perez Poem
You say your confused about us now. you say you don't know what it is u want anymore. you
dissapeared for two weeks and then come back with a daughter you claimed you didn't know
you had. You look at me like some fool that didn't know better. You say your at work and I know
your with her. but you think I don't know. You give me short answers when I ask you a question.
You make every excuse in the book and yet you find peace enough to sleep next to me. I ask
you if were okay and you say yes. I ask you if were going to make it and you say yes we will
were okay. Where are you now? You were the first to go. No goodbyes no thing you just left and
send me a message saying that your confused and don't know what to do. you don't know what
to do. you ask me for support but you don't tell me a thing. you come back two weeks later with
a daughter you claimed you never knew and now what am i supposed to do.
Copyright © Veronica Perez | Year Posted 2010
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