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Brandy Thomas Poem
Im in that dark place in my feeling's in head again.
I see red and black.
I don't won't to be here.
I'm in a room by myself.
I just want to grow wings in fly.
How i get here you ask.
Helping and thinking about everybody but myself.
When will I learn.
And the end of it all I'm only one who has my back besides God.
The monster in my head says It will be over soon.
I believe it and i can feel it
I know what's next the fake caring and fake tears
F#ck that and f#ck them to.
You did this to me.
I didnt just do this to myself.
We all played apart in laying me to rest.
You didn't see the pain hurt I beared and kept to myself
because I didn't want to seem weak or embarrass myself. You hurt me. As I did myself.
Thank God I won't let anyone of you ever hurt me again. Sault you monsters in my head and in my face.
Death his here.I smiled when I heard the loud boom.
Copyright © Brandy Thomas | Year Posted 2025
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Brandy Thomas Poem
Dear God,
It's me again your broken child.
I never could figure out this thing called life.
No matter how much I give mentally physically and financially.
It's never enough.
I'm all ways back stabbed and under appreciated.
Why can't I just meet somebody like myself.
To love me and understand me and truly wants me for me.
And understand when I withdrawal from the world its only because I'm dying in the inside, and not because I'm being nasty.
I tried. I don't want to be here. I never did.
All I can think is this has to be my parents karma
out doing me. It's not far.
Im broken and weak and feeling down.
I keep pushing myself putting smiles on people's faces.
While I'm dying in the side
anxiety won't stop racing
depression keep showing its ugly face.
But nobody cares to do the same for me. I'm alone.
God , the village you gave me,
you took back home with you to heaven
no dought where they belong .
So here I sit alone and and dying
mentally physical socially financially dying,
and deteriorating.
God please forgive me and take me home with you to.
I just want to bury my face and your arms and chest
and cry. Where I can truly be at peace and be safe
and left alone to rest with you Lord
Jesus smiling at your face
Amen
Copyright © Brandy Thomas | Year Posted 2025
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