Monster in my head

Im in that dark place in my feeling's in head again. I see red and black. I don't won't to be here. I'm in a room by myself. I just want to grow wings in fly. How i get here you ask. Helping and thinking about everybody but myself. When will I learn. And the end of it all I'm only one who has my back besides God. The monster in my head says It will be over soon. I believe it and i can feel it I know what's next the fake caring and fake tears F#ck that and f#ck them to. You did this to me. I didnt just do this to myself. We all played apart in laying me to rest. You didn't see the pain hurt I beared and kept to myself because I didn't want to seem weak or embarrass myself. You hurt me. As I did myself. Thank God I won't let anyone of you ever hurt me again. Sault you monsters in my head and in my face. Death his here.I smiled when I heard the loud boom.