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Jessica Oset Poem
Why do we mingle in the shallow end.
Yet allow ourselves to drown in the deep end.
Why do we allow ourselves to put
our guard down when it should be up.
Why do we allow ourselves to
Continue to fall for simple words.
My heart is blocked and sealed.
My walls are up and no longer
Want to feel.
I want to be numb to everything
And everyone.
Copyright © Jessica Oset | Year Posted 2025
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Jessica Oset Poem
You supported others who you thought were saviors. No one was there for me, no emotional support, no encouragement. Only whispers of whay I need to do and how to do it. As if you been through it before, but you have not. You didn't live through the torment. The emotional damage of his lies. The constant fear of walking through the door. The physical and sexual abuse, I had no where to go, no one who would listen. No one was there to help. No guidance or encouragement. No love from sisters or parents only whispers and words of disgust. You weren't the one who lived in constant fear, you weren't the one who always had to look over there shoulder. You were not the one who lost all hope and will to keep trying. When I cried out for help, I was met with I would never do that or let that happen. I was told, I would just walk away. Walking away was not an option, fighting back was and that is what I did. I screamed, yelled, fought back and finally won. Yet the hurt still lingers because you were never there. None of you truly cared or wanted to help. You just encouraged another snake in the grass. One who spewed venom from their mouth. Living through that alone made me realize how much I never had your support. Growing up was always about my siblings an you. I joined the military was told I would never make it but I did. Was told I wish we would gave never had you. Well here I am. I am here because of God and myself. Nothing you do or say will ever make me have respect or care for you. The support will never be there from me. I see that I am always on my own. The support given to my sisters is time consuming I see. The love given to them left none for me and I feel it. All I wanted was love but you always came empty handed. The situation opened my eyes to everything. The abuse as a child, the survival from it. The abuse from that relationship and survived it. My biggest problem of all is that the damage and hurt my sisters went through where met with love and support from you. They were met with loving and open arms. No one reaches out to my kids. They are kids and you are adults. The abandonment you have shown me and continue to show me is clear as day. Sisters are continuously favored and it shows. I am a survivor and realize it is no thanks to you. I did it on my own with God protecting me. I needed you then but don't need you now and I realize I am better off that way. Keep your love for them, I will be ok. I will always find my way.
Copyright © Jessica Oset | Year Posted 2025
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Jessica Oset Poem
I stand before you broken in pieces, yet you look at me and smile, knowing beauty that is in the inside.
The darkness that lays behind me is like a shadow cast upon the ground.
I try to walk the path of goodness only to be bound by sin and darkness.
Screaming to break free, afraid to let go.
Hurt and damaged from sins of the past.
Anger boils over and seeps out my pores.
I cast my anger and pain to God.
Looking up to seek his face, yearning for him, wanting to be closer to God.
But I fail to fully seek his face.
Running to my oast for comfort.
Afraid to truly let go of my pride.
Anger pursues me.
Pain is what ties me.
Bound to fear and regret.
Emotions reside in me.
But by God's mercy and grace I am truly forgiven.
Copyright © Jessica Oset | Year Posted 2024
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Jessica Oset Poem
Born in innocence.
Family sin and shame is hurled upon thee
No hope or reserve in sight
Shadows of doubt and shame
Thrust into the world to survive
No hope or support
Met with embarrassment and failure
Looks of disgust and disgrace
No family to turn to
Only turned backs and sounds of silence
Fighting for a chance to live
Living turns to fighting for love
Love turns to regret and fear
Fear turn to hatred and anger
Anger turns to rage towards life and love
Shame comes back into play
Only to repeat the cycle
Born in innocence
Family sin and shame is hurled upon thee.
Copyright © Jessica Oset | Year Posted 2025
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Time passes by
People change
Life moves on.
Pain and trauma stay.
Clock ticks on
Individuals grow.
Forgiveness beckons at your door.
Smiles hide truth.
Mankind tries to heal.
Darkness slowly creeps in.
Time stops.
People pass you by.
When the moment arrives,
All stripped away.
The trauma and pain on full display.
Isolated with no one.
Fear and shame take place.
Hatred and judgement come.
Reality strikes hard.
Alone and no one to help.
Only being told what to do
It all comes out.
Trauma lingers.
Life moves on.
Copyright © Jessica Oset | Year Posted 2024
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Jessica Oset Poem
The hurt, the pain, the lies and shame.
I don't blame you for telling lies.
I don't blame you for the hurt that was caused.
I don't blame you not knowing at all.
I don't blame your mother or that she defends you.
I don't blame the hurt or shame.
These generational curses are to blame.
The shame, guilt, the lies that were built.
Houses tore down, families broken.
I blame the demon on your back that smiles like a snake.
I blame the tight grip it holds on you that causes fear.
How were you to know what the future would hold.
How were you to know that the darkness you see is really the demon.
How were you to know that the Erie noise you hear is the demon speaking to you.
I blame the curse that stays in your family.
I blame the shift in you as you fall to the curse.
I don't blame you at all.
I blame the curse
Copyright © Jessica Oset | Year Posted 2024
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