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Onyxceila Ravenwood Poem
I can feel this rage boiling
Bubbling to the top
I can feel it catching fire
Gathering heat nonstop
I can feel it take aim
with my patience slain
The rage remains untamed
My suppression gathers the fuel
For my anger it is patient
It waits using every excuse
To patient Maybe
For now, it has passed full
It burnt away the softness
Of my lips
and forged my tongue into a blade
Desecrated my tenderness
I now fear my own rage
My body twitches
my mind glitches
I am losing chunks of time
I thought I had control
But that was a foolish lie
Within my bones, I feel the itch
And the temperatures begin to rise
Too much to contain within
My one body now shares two minds
Like an animal tearing through skin
Erupting from my soul it steals my life
Suppressing my emotions fueled the flame
As pressure grew inside
Birth to a creature the fire gave
Creating from within
a Hyde
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Captured
Sometimes I close my eyes so I can't see
Sometimes I feel so close
So trapped I can't breathe
Just want to be by myself
Just set me free
Just let me be
Release me
You've got me in this cocoon
that I can't pry open
So I scratch and I punch and I pull at it
till my fingers bleed
You've trapped me in this box
where I can't breathe
So I yell and I fight
till the box fills with my screams
Just let me be
Just set me free
Release me
You've got me in this world
Where my head is spinning
It's spinning so quick
That I can't see
You've got me feeling clostaphobic
Now let me go before I panic
Shut up so I don't go insane
Shut up so I don't go insane
Sometimes I close my eyes so I can't see
Sometimes I feel so close so trapped
I can't breathe
I just want to be by myself
Just set me free
Just let me be
Release me
Why do you torment me for your pleasure
Keep me in this cage so I don't run
Why do you treat me like a prisoner
Do you do this all for fun
Just let me be
Just set me free
Release me
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Veiled Love
The true depths of selfishness
I had never touched
Until I met you
Never feeling its cuts,
I could have never knew
Just how bladed it was
Victim after victim a glutenous lust
Seeming to serve you all that you want
While feeding on your primal thoughts
Striping the essence from all that you love
Instilling the eternal instinct of one
tunneled was your view
Only seeing you
in your kaleidoscoped mirage, I was lost
Nothing exists
just you and the witch
she feds on your gluttonous thoughts
Isosceles love
entangled I was
Within a diseased love
That wove with shadowed threads
The witches veil
What was beneath I couldn't tell
Upon the glowing ground
Within the scorched realm
Scared and burnt I thought I had been found
you wiped the tears from my Cheek
For so heavily did I weep
As the broken tears they all fell
with rehearsed lies
you webbed the lines
Of promises you'd never keep
Well-practiced was he
I was desperate and naive
completely Blinded by his spell
I was TO thankful to see
That you had no scars on your feet
yet barefoot through Hell
You roamed Free
you cloaked me in a dream
swept me off of my feet,
fed me clotted love
You said were berries
And with every bite
A thicker fog claimed my sight
And unbeknownst to me
Was a trap already sprung
I was engulfed, entombed in love
And for the first time, I could hear the witch speak
I am his
she shrieked
Leave now
she howled
Then with demonic laughter, she said unto me
For from you, he will feed
And his greed, I will breed
and from my womb his dreams
I will bore
My 2nd mistake
was in this moment made
And with heroic ignorance as my sword
I placed full blame
For the venom soaked veins
That poisoned our blossoming love
On the tighting grip of a succubus
and with no real view of the truth I swore
To free you from her grasp
And with freedom at last
Our chance at love, restored
Our roots could finally break through the floor
Day after day
there would prove Only pain
For years I fought
To free you
Or so I thought
But as life dimly passed
time chipped away at your mask
the shadowed veil was now torn
Caught in my gaze
Was the cast the light made
A shadowy display
Of your horns
An immobile state
You worked hard to maintained
holding me beneath my own shame
In the depths of that bottomless swamp
A view of the witch I had not
deeper into the blackness I further sank
Continued with Part Two...
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my mind is screaming
merely mimicking my lost design
my heart is bleeding
memories of a dissolved time
With the scorned child, I thought gone
the next stage of life has now begun
Feeling lost within my own doom
feeling as though I'm surrounded
Crowded within this room
screaming at the top of my shattered lungs
Not a single soul wavers
no one bothered to look up
They walk right through my scattered limbs
Leaving behind their muddy scuffs
Dancing upon them
Like leaves blown onto the street
Late into an autumn dusk
Trampled upon are the ones not seen
And on top of my punctured ribs, they stand
As if designated to their blind feet
This decaying plot of land
Porous and indented
with rubber soles imprinted
A pathway for others and nothing more
My torso became fused with the floor
my hand stretched to the sky
Grasping for any signs of life
My own existence I now struggle to find
But no plea no cry no sorrowful why
Passed through my lips are ever heard
Never acknowledged, not a single word
No value in me
Do others see
So I find myself in the dirt
Questioning my own existence
And it was in this very instance
Because the thought that I do not
was so Persistent
I prove to myself I exist
Because where else
but one's self
Would an owned thought live
So self I have no matter how distant
Self equals existence
But does it prove that I live
what is life but the execution of one's mind
Thinking about it and then creating it into time
So just maybe my problem does not lie
in the acknowledgment that I can not find
But in the value I have placed within it
And through my childish eyes
I view myself with the value I was given
And through these eyes, I see not
The value in myself or my thoughts
Thus with time into reality i create loss
Now the question has changed
and the new question raised
is how do I find value in something
where previously no value was placed
Who I am need to be reappraised
My childish eyes that once gave
A view of my worth
established at birth
Into this blackened dirt
They shall be laid
With newly found worth
Love for the child I gave
For value in her, I placed
And upon the replenished earth
A foundation was finally laid
I walk, rising from the dirt
A path that I have made
Forever Changed
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You've made me feel
weak
Pathetic
Small
You've made me feel
Inadequate
Shameful
unloveable
And raw
You halted my dance
And forced me to crawl
You taught me true fear
I'll never trust anyone
Ever
Not at all
You've fed me to the wolves
And left me to rot
Berated my name
And proved im easily forgot
You've made me feel
Jealous
Sad
Enraged
You've made me feel
Vacant
Hungry
And caged
Even with walls already built
From deep within me
you stole
My hopes and my dreams
My chance
At ever being whole
left bewildered and broken
Sunken and cold
Questioning How to protect
What is left
of my soul
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PAIN, the raw blistered truth of the wrongfully made choice laid bare and exposed.
JEALOUSY, the corrosively selfish vanity feed flame that burns impatiently for an unearned reward that is solely deserved.
GREED, the insatiable festering itch to consume all in exchange for self entirely.
SHAME, a echoing shadow stamped upon a piece of time corroded by the consent of wickedness.
DOUBT, the seed sprouting questions vaguely answered. Leaving you in a place of panicked teeter.
HATRED, the tiny acidic drips of a vicious flame turning to ash every speck of happiness, wisdom and love within its reach.
FEAR, the all consuming black sand stretching its way up your thigh stealing stealthily from you, your worth, your life.
SPITE, the unripe immature fervor that breastfeeds only petty rage, to strip you of your honor.
CHAOS, is the decaying, foul, rotten womb that nourishes the bladed fiend of self destruction.
SELF DESTRUCTION the inevitable dwelling place of the invaded mind.
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With the moonlight shines her beauty
Running parallel is her grace
Exuberant is her vibrance
But with trickery, she is laced
As dangerous as she is poisonous
Even more so
she is ravenous
Yet still He hungers for a taste
He thought her lips were like cherries
In truth, they are Lucifer’s berries
Now he finds himself delirious
Every part of her belonging to he
The Devil's Deadly Lady
Beauty within toxicity
So be wary of her touch
For death be its cost
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But within the nothing, something new
Within the absence, a voice grew
Whispering at first just my name
It was my voice that echoed through
Demanding I rise from my pain
Absolving me of all my shame
Insisting I remember the truth
That I am stronger than you
With my voice also came
the witch's one true name
A reflection revealed in time
That every scar of hers was too mine
with that, the witch's veil fell to the floor
her words I could hear once more
For into my ears, they poured
From you, he will feed
And with his greed, I will breed
And from my womb his dreams I will bore
Not a version of me, but a shell
A woman to familiar with hell
It was she who wore the cost
Of a love disguising, rot
Creating from her a hallowed husk
My destiny she soon would foretell
into cluttered ears, the words unfortunately fell
A warning unheard and soon lost
My eyes are opened, unlocked
A clearer picture of you I have found
There's was never an us
Just you and your self lust
my heart I picked off the ground
as I gathered my strength
No longer afraid
With the missing piece of myself
I'm rebound
stealthy and clever was your plan
To steal all the strength that I had
Then consume whole
My very soul
The only thing left that I have
The only thing truly mine
But I see you now, my love
And enough is enough
Out of your custom-built hell, I will climb
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Held within my dreams
I can see you dieing
Deep within my veins
I can feel you crying
What has attacked you
Left you bleeding
What has Hurt you
Left you screaming
Why are you in so much pain
What has ripped out
Your soul and
Left you in shame
What tries so hard
To steal from you
Your name
Convince you to stop living
Wrapping even your hopes
in chains
Tell Me...
Can you hear me ?
Speak to me !
ONYX !!!
Listen to me !
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Learn to get back up, after you fall. Before you ever walked, you crawled
Invest in Yourself, explore who you are
Find the balance within you and apply it to all
Entertain the impossible, a closed mind creates only loss
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