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Hannah Kurtz Poem
Deep inside the shadow of mourning
Is heard a voice but of no words,
A distant tug of midnight sorrow
Lies the heart that cannot speak,
It beats the envy and jealousy
Of those from all around it,
The scars that are hidden by a curtain
That makes it a blur to all who pass,
A twisted mind like a string
Pulling to hard to control the night,
Yet as reminded with the history of hurt
The strength is too weak to tug,
And by letting go to awaken the day
This crooked heart is left in the shadow,
Once again its life is a mystery
Which disappears beneath the grief,
As it dissolves into the bright horizon
Left only to memory of those who keep,
The crooked heart must only wait again
Till the moon once more shall pull over the sun,
Because at night is the only time
When all are fast asleep,
Than that is the only time
At which the crooked heart must beat.
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It was the breeze
That took me like a song
The lyrics were perfect
And I could hear the calmness
That whispered into my ear
Bringing a chill to my face
It was the breeze
It was the sea
Those waves that crashed
In blameless synchronization
Making my heart beat
To the familiar sound
Of the surrounding aqueous
It was the sea
It was the sun
The protecting coat
Warmth that brought me here
To this crowded solace
Incompletely to captivity
Discovery of life
It was the sun
It was the sand
Crawling relentlessly
As I poured the grains
Slowly through my grasp
Aggravation from my dampness
To the attached grains
It was the sand
It was the breeze
The brisk breath of earth
Calling only but softly
It sings the song of life
The ocean can bring
To the human race encompassing
It was the breeze
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you know what, one day your going to look back and think.
think about all the memories, good time, fight, heartbreaks, and laughter.
and your going to say to yourself the world was in my hands.
while now i think i'm the scum of the earth how could i ever be the world?
i'm imperfect in the most strange and demented form of weirdness.
i won't try new foods, and i hate odd smells.
i've never been a fan of myself or the way you laugh at me when i forget things.
i get depressed to the point where i want to curl up and die just because of a comment
someone made.
when people look at me i tell myself that it's because they hate me and if they ever say
something to me it's out of the pity for such a loser.
my hair could never be done to my satisfaction, i yell at inanimate objects and i feel like my
pillow is my diary.
i trust people with my heart just to find that they will tear it to pieces and twist my pain of
unforgiveness on myself.
these are just mere examples of my imperfection, yeah theres a lot more believe it or not.
but when you think that the exact opposite of me is what you wanted, your going to realize i
was exactly what you were looking for.
but time won't stop and rewind itself like it does for you in the movies it will continue moving
and almost faster.
all the while regret in the back of your mind.
and me i'll think and move on because i was so blessed, thanking god for steering my life in
the right direction.
so i am clearly not saying that if you choose me right now your life is going to be perfect and
have the perfect happy ending like those stories always seem to have because i am not
perfect.
things won't always be easy but sometimes miracles do happen and tomorrow will surpass
yesterday,
but you were too blind to even turn your head and view the future.
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i found myself in the shadows
because the hole you dug was deep
and now i find myself praying for god
my soul just to keep
but now i'm going to be forthright
and take this honest leap
so you better not close your eyes
because now's not time to sleep
i can't believe
that you never even called
you promised to be there
every time i'd fall
and now you have me
pressed against the wall
remembering the time we said
we'd make it through it all
i'm moving on and things
are better than before
everything i've been through
i have now closed the door
and after everything we've been through
i'm not asking for more
because you just took my heart
and shot it straight through the core
i should've known that you
would leave from the start
turn around and leave me here
alone in the dark
mentally and physically
just falling apart
but the strongest sound is the beating
of my lonely heart
i used to be the world to you
didn't realize that was fake
becasue putting all my trust in you
seemed to be a mistake
and now all those lie you've pulled
have given me all i can take
cause they pushed me into a corner
brought me to awake
and now a heart so cold and bitter
has replaced all your care
and all the memories you left
have now seemed to disappear
all the pain you tried to swallow up
is really just still here
but it's not worth the fight anymore
because it will never end up fair
so you see it's not my heart
you really even won
and your life will be filled with darkness
instead of mine with sun
you'll just keep thinking to yourself
i wish my life was done
and i'll be lauging in the distance
because it's just begun
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your my intricate perfection,
a flawless tear
an unblemished shadow
a meaningful promise
a mysterious secret
a pure reason
a complicated desire
a breath of hope
an unfinished rainbow
a beautiful reaction
a fearless apology
a forgiving poison
an ideal twist
an incolved smile
a breathless sunset
a heart warming sunrise
your my intricate perfection
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I sit weeping in the solemn night
The fire does nothing but warm
Cruel was the day, to end the light
Dark emptiness leading to scorn
Some bring it as discovery
That put me only in a hole
My tears now have the best of me
Piercing through my shattered soul
My own soul was brought by night
Now forsaking and giving this loneliness
Pain gripping my spirit, of wrong and right
No friendship abound me consists
The truth of hatred brought I now despise
Dreams bring longing of my homesick past
To now just only close my eyes
Is real peace brought at last?
So dreams haunt and calm a broken spirit
To do nothing but bring the arrogant sun
Memories of night from now on, never rightly fit
Being only as bright as the pessimistic one
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My heart was repeatedly torn this year
And just when I though night had come forever
The sun rose
But the sun did more then bring the breath of light
It brought back memories
Memories of the serenity in his voice
And the touch of his hand upon my cheek
These memories also brought me multiple sorrowed spirits
They held me captive to the world abound me
So now I sit in theis crisp lonely morning
And watch as the flowing cascade
Of blessed beauty turns my world
From the shadowed shades of violet
That were the days we had spent together
To the deeper hole of blackness
That were the upcoming
But my hatred obscured my vision
Blinding me from the fact
That hurt and pain was in both of us
Little then did I realize
That I wasn’t alone in this forsaken world
Because people were there for me
And their support gave me the strength
To pick up the pieces of my broken tears
So it then hit me
And all the times he had told me goodbye and I cried
Those tears were worthless
So this time I ignored my emotions
Instead I looked ahead
With the hope of a better tomorrow
Because this time love was in my hands
And it wasn’t going abandon me
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A tear may press upon my cheek
But no one sees it fall,
A face and name of nothingness
Hide the glory of it all,
But I just a girl stand beside a wall
Just to be protected by the shade?
And yet instead I remain the same
Hidden by others I slowly fade,
But what confidence is given to me
To hear my own subtle cry,
To leave me later wondering
Was it you or was it I?
Now I stand, right here today
With a heart complicated like a web,
That no one ever understands
Why its mind it there was led,
To then try and bring mere happiness
Another obstacle is formed,
To try and be someone like me
A life would be transformed,
But to hear from someone
That your whole life seems devoted to,
Could make you feel like they just today
Were sometime thinking about you,
So I sit and wait for those
To watch and see my smile,
But no one ever looks towards me
They think that I’m not worthwhile,
And if I step outside this shadow
Wrapped around myself,
Will I be called out upon?
Or tossed aside upon a shelf?
If I sit and cry to think
That I am not doing well,
Will anyone ever stop and ask
‘I wonder if she needs help?’
Yet if no one really ever cares
If you are feeling depressed,
And there’s other things inside there life
More important to be stressed,
So a face and name of nothingness
Hide the glory of it all,
And still tomorrow a tear will press upon my cheek
But no one will ever see it fall.
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i'd never know
i could be so slow
but the way things go
they have me moving to fast
if you could see
the truth in me
i'm sure we'd be
together at last
but it's just what you do
that makes me so confused
still crazy for you
now i'm part of your past
this time you can't erase
when you first saw my face
you left without a trace
a missing piece to my cast
i'll carry on
try to be strong
but what's so wrong
i can't move on
i can't take it
my heart your breaking
you've got me crying
emotionally dying
these scars left open
my promises broken
a piercing shatter
it doesn't matter
now i'm left waiting
just suffocating
tied up confused
in what you do
took away my fears
but left me these tears
i never thought it would turn out like this
that life yould be throwing this twist
that would leave me in a toxic kiss
yet you'd still be the one that i'd miss
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verse 1:
the memories, are becoming more haunting,
what i see, is not what i'm wanting
your shallow soul, can't carry my burden,
my complex heart, is getting ready to turn in
into a hole, so black that its blinding,
apoisoned kiss is what you'll be finding
as cold as ice, the heart that you carry,
and its my soul that you've been dying to bury
chorus:
my shattered life is burning in my brain,
and all this strife, has been driving me insane
try to turn back, back to happy
i'll tell you, i won't be laughing
covered in, this dark dispair
to even think, you might have once cared
so your smile, i won't even miss
just concealed, in the pain of my darkness
now i'm upset, i should have known it from the start,
that you were bound to break and ruin my dying heart
verse 2:
take yesterday, and put it in a black rose
to show it's dead, make those doors opened now close
that fire burning, is now a one of hatred
theres no more love, even though it might have once lived
bridge:
you were my light
now your my shadow
your broken lies
are what has followed
the hurts forever
leaving black scars
you thought i'd never
find out who you are
your demented games
have left me bruised
didn't miss your aim
my heart abused
this hallow life
is what you chose
your promise empty
my soul a black rose
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