Details |
Harveen Kaur Poem
Oh life!
I was on a ride of life,
going happily
around the beautiful world!
I had everything...
but then this dark hooded figure,
knocked on my door...
I am not the same anymore
because I now have everything but honestly nothing.
I curled into a small ball,
made a hard wall
I feel numb
Oh life, what have you done?
lost my hobbies
lost my gossip time
lost my friends
lost all the fun
lost all my pretty smiles
Oh life, are you happy now?
I wanna scream so loud,
I wanna yell, I wanna shout
I wanna escape this pain away
I do not deserve to feel it anyway,
or do I?
The salty tracks of the tears
line up my face like the scars on my ankles
I write the word "alone" but see it as "my home sweet home".
People tell me to get up
and that I need to fight
and that it's all in my mind
but I tell them, it's not as easy as they say
because I am stuck on this bay.
Oh life, you have won this race
I am still lost in the maze
I am in this prison
saving my fragile sanity from shattering
saving this soul from breaking
I am suffocating
gasping for air
but nobody's there,
gasping for air
but nobody cares.
A dark cloud hangs over my head
Dark thoughts swirl in my head
Oh life, you've made me into your Miss Negativity!
Oh life, why have you taken my joy away?
I was so happy before!
but not anymore
Oh time, I want yesterday once more
I can't live this way anymore!
When I was yearning for a big hug,
I heard my mom call me crazy
saying it's all disgusting
She tells me to stop all this nonsense
makes me believe,
Is sadness a privilege?
can't I cry?
do I not deserve to feel it?
Oh life I was one of your strongest soldiers,
the happiest one-
Why have you made me this weak now?
Oh life, you are such a big bad thief
You have stolen my precious childhood away
told me to find my way
Beautiful wind, take this pain away
Show me away
I am drowning in the dark sea,
I am suffocating
can't breathe
Can't you see?
I wanna break my heart into tiny pieces
Throw them into the waves
throw them away
But we need to live
We need to thrive
We need to survive
I need to get up
I have to break my shell
But I can't forget I fell.
Oh life I have failed your test
I tried my best
Help me, somebody help me,
Don't judge me, please
I am not crazy
just doomed in some misery
Just help me, save me from this black hole
And I'll find my way
I'll try my best, Oh life!
I haven't lost my will to win!
Copyright © Harveen Kaur | Year Posted 2023
|
Details |
Harveen Kaur Poem
When I was young,
cupping my ears with my tiny hands
because Daddy was mad
I blocked mommy's screams,
had to see all the fights
between her and the monster
I wanted to save her,
but I was hiding and crying all alone
with my dolly
whispering in her ear,
"Never again!"
But here I am,
started a new life-
fell hard for that man!
Walked down the aisle in white,
never knew that
I walked down the same road like my mother.
The Monster's soul possessed my man-
now I am stuck in this forest
never lost my path
always back to him
back to the monster,
facing his wrath.
Can't escape his clutches
I run and run
don't stop
won't stop
can't stop
hope's still there with me
she yells at me to run and run
but he chases me every time
tells me that I can't leave him
never again!
Hope's there,
shows me my future,
Where I am dancing around
far away from the monster.
I watch my happy self with my watery eyes,
wiping my blood from my nose
whispering "Maybe someday!"
Freedom is my dream,
Oh how I dream to be free
like the pretty bird I see,
soaring higher and higher in the sky!
I too wanna fly,
hope's whispering in my ear "maybe someday!"
Day and night I suffer,
bruises line up all over my body.
Oh it's is a cycle,
going round and round!
Praying to God everyday
"Oh please listen to my pleas,
save me from this monster,
give me my freedom back!"
At night,
I toss and turn on the bed
feeling so jittery
I await the nightmare to begin
listening for his footsteps
bringing his drunken self
gets on top of me
clothes thrown here and there
apparently nobody hears me scream "no! stop!"...
tears stream down my face,
It aches everywhere,
my mind in the NOWHERE!
wondering "maybe someday!"
In the wee hours of morning,
treading softly,
carefully
on the steps that don't creak
praying he doesn't wake up
that he doesn't see all the mess
I clean it all,
Then hide in a dark corner,
sliding down the wall
nerves all haywire...
counting my breaths,
relishing these moments without him,
without the monster!
feeling so alive but,
wishing for death
to knock on my doorstep-
but hope whispers in my ear,
"Maybe someday!"
I suffer day and night
wishing it to stop
But then I make a promise once again,
to leave and never look back again
remind myself to get up
and try with all my might,
to fight this monster
have to say goodbye!
Finally, I grab the wings and fly away
don't ask me how
but hope helped me escape
my one and only wish granted now,
and I smile and laugh out loud
and shout , "Maybe today!"
Copyright © Harveen Kaur | Year Posted 2023
|