Maybe Someday

When I was young, cupping my ears with my tiny hands because Daddy was mad I blocked mommy's screams, had to see all the fights between her and the monster I wanted to save her, but I was hiding and crying all alone with my dolly whispering in her ear, "Never again!" But here I am, started a new life- fell hard for that man! Walked down the aisle in white, never knew that I walked down the same road like my mother. The Monster's soul possessed my man- now I am stuck in this forest never lost my path always back to him back to the monster, facing his wrath. Can't escape his clutches I run and run don't stop won't stop can't stop hope's still there with me she yells at me to run and run but he chases me every time tells me that I can't leave him never again! Hope's there, shows me my future, Where I am dancing around far away from the monster. I watch my happy self with my watery eyes, wiping my blood from my nose whispering "Maybe someday!" Freedom is my dream, Oh how I dream to be free like the pretty bird I see, soaring higher and higher in the sky! I too wanna fly, hope's whispering in my ear "maybe someday!" Day and night I suffer, bruises line up all over my body. Oh it's is a cycle, going round and round! Praying to God everyday "Oh please listen to my pleas, save me from this monster, give me my freedom back!" At night, I toss and turn on the bed feeling so jittery I await the nightmare to begin listening for his footsteps bringing his drunken self gets on top of me clothes thrown here and there apparently nobody hears me scream "no! stop!"... tears stream down my face, It aches everywhere, my mind in the NOWHERE! wondering "maybe someday!" In the wee hours of morning, treading softly, carefully on the steps that don't creak praying he doesn't wake up that he doesn't see all the mess I clean it all, Then hide in a dark corner, sliding down the wall nerves all haywire... counting my breaths, relishing these moments without him, without the monster! feeling so alive but, wishing for death to knock on my doorstep- but hope whispers in my ear, "Maybe someday!" I suffer day and night wishing it to stop But then I make a promise once again, to leave and never look back again remind myself to get up and try with all my might, to fight this monster have to say goodbye! Finally, I grab the wings and fly away don't ask me how but hope helped me escape my one and only wish granted now, and I smile and laugh out loud and shout , "Maybe today!"