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I pretend I'm alright
And put my best stance forward
Wear my brave face
Tryin to be smooth
Just tripped on my shoelace
What's a girl to do
Busted, razed, flat broke
My foot slipped off the pedal and into the spoke
Out of focus, idling, coasting on fumes
Myyyyy, mmmm, my oh my
Must retreat to my bedroom
For slumber; ugh - that noxious perfume
I sprayed on today
In the department store
I don't need to tell you
It reeks
That's a big pee you
Oh my
My plan has gone awry
I try to write
After listening to Vile
He inspires me
Perspiring
Thinking bout how to
Ink brilliance
Such as he
Slamming on the brakes
My leg itches
Ya damn flea
Bravado and all
I seem to fall
I spiral out of control
Resilience reels me back in
I'm a bouncy, buoyant, headstrong girl
Go ahead and believe what you want
Self deprecation is my defense mechanism
Keep playing
those cards close to your vest
You're bluffing fool
I know this by now
Prevaricator is a might big word
For liar
As you try to set the world on fire
I see you race away
And turn my head
Pretending not to see
When you visibly disgust me
You're not proving anything
With your ostentatious
Obnoxiously awesome self
Annnnnything
I ain't seen before
And won't soon forget
I'm a rhyming
tonight
Maybe filled with fright
Or could it be boredom
Delirious laughter
G'night
Sleep and clarity are what I desire
Slough off this crap
I know it's beyond time for a nap
My RPM is slowing
My aching for REM is growing
Copyright June 17, 2023 Lori Steindorf
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By Lori Steindorf/Copyright June 18, 2022
When I see your face
When you stroll into view
I see you mostly every day
Without knowing it,
You brighten my drab day
Your casual wave and mega-watt smile
Are scintillating
Would you like to talk awhile
Or we can remain silent and unspoiled
You helped me out that time
When I was in a bind
How could I not be aware of you
You offered to help me with the trash
You slipped me a few bucks
When I was broke and outta luck
I stuttered when I asked your name
So I could properly address you to sing your praise
Your smile, wave and kindness are contagious - the impetus I desperately need to propel me through these dreary days.
Copyright © Lori Steindorf | Year Posted 2022
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By Lori Steindorf Copyright July 22, 2021
One promises this
Another promises that
One plies me with his culinary flair
Tells me I'm fat and hates my hair.
Tired of trying to earn my M-R-S degree
When all this time I should have been
focusing on me
If it's gonna be, it's up to me
One wants to buy me drinks, dinner and take me fishing
Seems he left his wallet in the truck outside to never return
Something he should've mentioned
I was already prepared to do dishes after he lured me in.
You see why it's crucial I rely on me. Too many lonely nights and unfulfilled wishes mar one's spirit. Glad the world's big enough so I never have to meet them anew. What's a frustrated lass to do?
It's not to say there aren't honorable, decent, evolved men out there. I'm tired of struggling to find him. To be candid, I'm through.
Self-discovery is my life's work after a burnt-out strand of self-absorbed men. Where's that condo you say you have? Go live there already! No, you can't roost on my couch. Here's a little beer money. Climb behind the wheel of your clunker and be gone.
Copyright © Lori Steindorf | Year Posted 2022
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This would be their special time of year. Cold air fiercely bites; the yule season is here.
She recalls how they adored trimming the tree.
She's angry; it wasn't his time to leave.
She strolls all alone along a moonlit street. She's sure she sees his image in storefront window panes. Tears begin to stream down her sullen face. She begins to feel weak, falling to her knees.
There's no comfort or consolation she will ever know, but somehow she rises to her feet. Pulling her coat closed snugly, she vows to fight for her family, courage and what's left of her sanity.
He's in heaven now. His earthly work is done.
Gazing up, searching for a sign, an opalescent shooting star streaks against the black onyx sky.
She feels instantly at ease. Her boy is safe and at peace. That bright star reminds her he's never left her side.
Copyright © Lori Steindorf | Year Posted 2022
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Lori Steindorf Copyright April 28, 2021
You disappear for months on end.
You only want to see me when it's convenient for you.
You say you're busy at work or with your daughter when I try to reach out to you.
Hey, at least that's a response. It can be days, weeks. You get it. Hell, I never know if I will hear from you again. Evolve some please before you consider seeing me.
You call me stubborn when I have autonomy in my life and can't make time. Divine intervention to preserve my heart and mind. I'm understanding now why you have an ex-wife.
Well, this time around it's not me, it's the obnoxious you.
Your dimly lit cave craves you and your dimwit ways.
Cradle yourself to sleep when you've had a bad day.
Let me make it clear
There's no meeting of the minds here
I think we've both figured that one out
The chemistry was scorching
Without substance
There's nothing to us
Maybe you will or maybe you won't
Ever understand
But your daughter does or soon will
She looks up to you
You're the king of her realm
I hope you teach her not to choose
Cold, unavailable, insensitive men.
Copyright © Lori Steindorf | Year Posted 2022
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saw a recent photo of you
And thought I can handle this
Thinking you'll no longer faze me;
I'm without your potent sting
I'm in control
Thoughts pass; our love wasn't built to last
We had our times
We agree to leave the past behind
In hindsight, it's for the best
No one will remember but I can't forget
Grateful we've taken different paths
Don't want to resort to angry words
Some days I'm mired in our wreckage
Trapped in a memory
That time. To this day, it's so keen
You close to me
When we cut class after algebra
Gazing at each other
Finishing each other's sentences
We were closely knit
I pined over you for years
Thinking in time
We'd be reunited
No one will remember but I can't forget
Grateful we've taken different paths
I need to break free from the memories
Worth mentioning
I will always be somewhat smitten
Copyright © Lori Steindorf | Year Posted 2023
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By Lori Steindorf
Copyright March 5,2024
I love you with all I've got
I cannot lie; pretend to be someone I'm not
I could give you reasons why
Most of them would make you cry
Tears of joy; tears of pain
We shed them together
And saw each other through hardship
Yet here we are today
I've walked away - had to vacate to placate
When I could have stayed
In my heart, you'll forever remain
We go back so far
For so many years
I cherish the memories - our banter and sacred time keep you fresh on my mind.
To this day, they're still pristine
A testament of what your persona means to me
We were in sync
It hurts to have lost you
It will never be the same
In my heart and mind,
I could never forget you
Leaving your memory behind
How I wish it were true
It's as though you're here
As I reminisce, I'll never forget you
Copyright © Lori Steindorf | Year Posted 2024
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The Bigger Plan is Grander Than The Dream
Copyright March 30, 2024
By Lori Steindorf
I sat here, drowning in tears,
Many years ago,
Thinking my life was over.
Maybe you knew or perhaps you didn't
I tried not to let it show.
I distanced myself
After you lied your last lie
Caught in the act
There's no excuse for that
I closed myself off
To not giving you the satisfaction
Of how I would react.
As I sit here today in this very same place
I breathe a sigh of relief that we've stayed apart
I couldn't breathe without you - or so I thought
Your memory constantly toying with my thoughts
Thanks to his guidance, I've reclaimed my heart.
Today, I shed tears of joy
Because His unswerving love
Has permitted me to see
And witness my life as happy and carefree
The Bigger Plan Is Grander Than The Dream
Amazing how he's turned my life around
When knocked down, I dust myself off, and
Hop back on for a spin on life's merry go round.
When all I had to do was seek his truth
My life gets better each day
Since he has showed me his way
His plan by far surpasses my broken dream
Thank you, Father, His Son and the Holy Spirit
For never losing your grasp of me.
Copyright © Lori Steindorf | Year Posted 2024
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My mind is drifting back in time today
To the moments we shared together
We captured it for awhile when we were feeling sublime.
I was coming out of an ended relationship
Jaded and confused
I hope you understand I was spent
Had nothing to offer to anyone, nada left to lose
I drove you away when you were heaven sent
I needed to blow off steam
And find myself anew
Only problem now is if I could I would love to see you
It's not in me to try to shatter what you have built
Just want you to know that I love you for you and
Yearn for your happiness, which you have found
I totally blew it. The guilt is mine.
You're a man of character who takes the high road in how you proceed.
Reflecting on it now, turning you away, was foolish to do. You gave me the best and now I barely make do
I will always love you and admire you from afar
I ran you ragged and hurt you only because I needed time to heal. You have a family now and a glow about you that I could never measure up to and wouldn't dare try to steal.
God bless you, my friend. I'll love you to the end. Aware our paths will never cross again
I take comfort in knowing you once thought the world of me, and I won't soon forget how you cared for me when I felt unlovable and empty.
Copyright © Lori Steindorf | Year Posted 2025
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Lori Steindorf Copyright May 19, 2021
Shaking my Magic 8 ball
Yielding the same answer
No, no way, not today, not likely
I know it's not working
With the situation I'm in
I've been here before
Why am I sweating it
When Ive given it all I have
And still not getting anywhere
I don't need a talisman
Or any sign to point me to where I need to be
This is a little upheaval
I'm a nomadic spirit. Not roots attached to a tree
Times have changed; it's no longer the same
Nothing left to anchor me here.
Time to move on; right now won't even register in years to come
What would age me, drain me and wear me out
Is to walk on eggshells in a life fraught with drudgery
Every day, living a lie, mired in self-doubt.
I always have options
No use in staying where I don't want to be
Life is long when you're miserable
I choose to be happy and carefree
Time to unearth what I've buried for years
I must do this for myself
Conquering my sense of inadequacy and fears
I've fretted over this before
And I'll power on through again
It's up to me to rely on me
It pays to be my own best friend
Copyright © Lori Steindorf | Year Posted 2025
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