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Anna Lonely Poem
I wish I was good enough to love
I wish I was good enough to be wanted
I wish I was good enough to not be broken or hurt
I wish I was good enough to not be rejected
But I’m not good enough
Not good enough to be loved and cared for,
Not good enough to not be raped,
Not good enough to not be taken,
Not good enough to live a peace full life,
Not good enough for a coffee,
Not good enough to be talked to on weekends,
Not good enough to not have miscarriages,
Not good enough to live.
Not good enough to not have cancer.
Not good enough to be loved even if I’m not family,
Not good enough to live the life I dream off.
I’m just not good enough for this life.
Thank you cancer for showing me that.
For showing me how not good enough I am,
To the ones I want to notice,
Not to even get an apology.
I will die and won’t have the apologies I have been waiting for.
I’m just not good enough.
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Anna Lonely Poem
I only new you for 20 weeks,
I felt you wriggling around and could almost see your smile,
I felt you get upset when I ate food you didn’t like,
Do you know how much I loved you my baby girl?
My heart has known of so much pain,
But not the kind of pain I feel now without you.
Holding your little fingers,
Kissing your soft chubby cheeks,
Smiling at your daddy’s big lips you had,
And that precious heart of gold.
I wish I could describe the terrible pain I feel inside,
I wish someone could understand that all I want is to be with you,
I love you my beautiful precious daughter,
My one and only true unconditional love.
The best thing I could have created,
The most perfect little soul,
The most adorable, sweetest smelling delight,
Taken from us too soon.
I hope you are safe where you are,
I hope you know how much I loved you,
I hope you know our hearts are broken without you.
I will be with you soon my baby,
You will be safe in mummy’s arms knowing I’m with you.
I love you my daughter,
My sweet child,
Mummy’s little girl,
Mummy’s pride and joy.
Mummy loves you.
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Anna Lonely Poem
Another attack and some more pain,
I’m so sore and I’m so gone,
Everything hurts including my mind.
Screaming for help
But no one can hear me,
I wish it would all end,
I wish I could live a life like others,
Free to be outside and to live my life not scared.
I’m sick of the dark, I’m sick of wanting to be dead,
I just want to live and to be left alone,
My little one and the one I love
Free and left alone.
It all started with one person many years ago,
They don’t know the effect they had,
By making you feel so low.
Feeing so unworthy,
Feeling rejected and broken,
Living with so much pain it hurts to go on.
Let me live and be free like others,
I want to smell the fresh air and be free,
I want to escape when I’m sad without being hurt.
The whole world is ruled by sex,
You will be cheated on because of sex.
You will be rejected because of sex.
You will be lied too because of sex.
You will be made to feel like you don’t matter because of sex.
It’s true the better gender always wins.
The man wins.
All is started with was a relationship,
That went on too long and now every person,
Reminds you of them,
Sex will always come first to others and so will every man.
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Constantly feeling alone,
Two days of happiness and then again I’m alone,
I want to be loved and wanted,
I want to be a child again, with a mum to love me and a dad to protect me,
We always want what we didn’t have.
Being left with the concept of being alone,
Left on your own or people leaving is nothing new,
When you get used to it, you stop caring you are alone.
In life we need one person, it’s just ourselves.
Thinking you will be lovely mum when you could leave,
How many attempts do I need to make,
I’m still here but if mumma does remember I love you,
It wasn’t you bubba, your mumma has brain issues.
Thrown empty promises that get taken away.
Crying almost daily and wanting to be loved and not on my own,
That’s life, demons in our head, monsters in our beds.
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Every day I want to get on a plane,
Every day I want to jump from the highest lookout,
Fly with me, take me to you.
I still hear your laughter in my ear,
I still feel your voice whispering in my ear,
I still need you,
I still want you.
My life ended when you left,
When I know I won’t see you ever again,
My heart breaks because I want you.
Babe the times is almost here,
See you soon my love,
See you soon baby.
Nothing worries me anymore,
Soon we will be one,
I won’t ever leave you.
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The paintbrush is my razor,
The paper is my wrists,
I deserve the pain,
I shrug my shoulders and I insist.
The day you died,
You took me with you,
The pain you caused I won’t ever live with,
I want to see your beautiful brown eyes,
See your beautiful brown hair,
Be close beside you and feel your touch.
The universe took you from us too soon,
You fought to die, instead of to live,
I was meant to be yours until my end,
But instead you left me alone.
I miss your arms, I miss your soul,
When the sun sets one more time we will be,
Together once more.
The last tears I will ever cry,
The final pain I will ever feel,
When the sun rises I will be forgotten,
I only exist to my self now and the pain we shared.
When the sun goes down,
I will always remember the way we laughed,
I was crazy when you where alive,
But I’m crazier now that you are gone.
When the sun sets,
We will be together again,
Wrapped in each other’s arms,
Like nothing has changed.
Tired of filling the void of you being gone,
I’m falling apart, the perfect times in my head,
My heart needs you. My soul needs you.
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What is it like to have a real mum?
What is it like to be loved and protected,
What is a mother’s love?
Is it kind and gentle,
Is it rough and painful,
Or are you protected and kept safe.
I don’t think I will ever know how it feels,
To be safe and feel loved and kept safe,
To know what it means to be wanted,
By your mother who loves you and wants you.
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I hope it was worth leaving me behind,
I hope it was worth not loving me,
I hope the fun was worth it,
I hope it was all worth it.
I hope working was worth it,
Shagging all day was worth it,
Leaving my alone with my head when I couldn’t cope.
I hope the end is worth it,
It’s not worth it when you can’t live through memories.
Through the pain and feel alone.
I hope it was worth it.
I hope it’s worth it.
Feeling empty and alone.
I am alone.
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When it’s all over,
Your heart breaks,
When you don’t know what you will do
Next you can only escape.
Leaving and escaping means facing nothing,
Running and disappearing.
Not to be found ever again.
Hurting everyone around you,
Wanting the fake ones who say they loved you,
To know how much pain you have,
Is it revenge or just pain
I wanted it to all be okay,
I wanted it all to just not have happened
I wanted it all to have started again.
At a birth there is an end,
At the birth, there is my end.
My end, my
Time.
No one can help me now.
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Everything comes to an end.
Life comes to an end,
Relationships come to an end,
Friendships come to an end,
Understandings come to and end.
Being abandoned and left on your own hurts,
Having people move away from you hurts,
Everything comes to an end,
I’m not ready yet to go it alone.
The thoughts of being alone scares me,
The thought of being taken horrifies me,
The thought of being broken creates fear.
fears are illusions, but they aren’t illusions when only
You know what happened.
I know what happened to me, I was there,
I have reasons to fear what could happen.
Five weeks to go, five weeks to watch my back,
The end is nearly here.
You know because people think you are strong,
People think you are ready to be alone,
But you aren’t.
It’s nearly here. I smell it and I know what will happen.
It’s happened before and I know how it is and how it feels.
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