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Srishti Singh Poem
Hey you,
I know what you are going through
Trying to stand tall and strong
While a deep rooted pain arising from within
Is eating you from the inside
You don’t know what is causing it
You don’t know how long it will hurt
But through all the pain and hopelessness
You still smile
Hey you,
I see the tear stains on your cheeks even after you brush them away
I wish you wore them with pride
Like battle scars or war paint
For every moment when you don’t give in to those thoughts running in your head
You become a warrior
Hey you,
I know self-worth is a foreign concept for you
You think you are not good enough for them
For her
For your dreams
Or for life itself
But you are wrong
They are waiting with open arms
She is waiting with an open heart
Life is waiting with all the opportunities you desire
Let them in
For if they thought they didn’t deserve you
They wouldn’t be waiting
For the moment when you are ready
Hey you,
I know those days of hopelessness
When the pain becomes too much
When you feel like running away
From everyone and everything
When you feel like running away
From yourself
Just remember
No matter what
Come back home
Hey you,
I know those times
When you think too much
Worry too much
And don’t want to fight anymore
During those times, just remember
It will be fine
How do I know?
Because I have been through it too
Carrying the burden of the world’s opinions
On my shoulders
I lived every moment in anxiety
Had trouble sleeping through the night
Even though my nightmares felt more comforting than reality
I felt alone and defeated too
I had been broken
But then I learnt
To sing a little louder
To dance a little crazily
To let go of the burden of other’s opinions
And most importantly
To laugh a little more freely
I have learnt
That I don’t always have to be the best
Just the best version of me
That I don’t always have to be strong
That I shouldn’t be scared to cry
And wear my scars with pride
As they have made me stronger
So here I stand
Waiting for you with an open heart
So let me share your burden and lighten your shoulders
Let me give you a light if it feels to dark and cold
Let me make you a warm cup of tea for I know you are tired
I just want you to know
You will be ok
So hang in there
And enjoy this moment
Spring is right around the corner
Copyright © Srishti Singh | Year Posted 2019
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Srishti Singh Poem
Darkness
Everywhere I looked
I searched long and hard
But the light I couldn’t find
I tried
I tried
But there was no escape
From the abyss of self-hate
Crumbled on the cold hard floor
I reached out
For softness and warmth
But was greeted with none
I lay awake in bed
A world worse than nightmare land
Where dreaming was an escape
A life more painful than hell itself
The bottle of pills on my bed side looks tempting
My tongue craves its taste
The bottle of bleach on the floor
Looks like the only liquid that can quench my thirst
The blade’s luster makes my eyes glitter
As it’s touch my wrist craves
Red hot blood oozes out comforting me from the dark coldness around
I tried
I tried
Long and hard
I tried
I tried
But the temptation of self-harm
I couldn’t fight
I finally see light
Sunlight penetrating my room through the window
Beckoning me close
And now I stand
On the window sill
Staring at the grave below
But just as I am about to take flight
A soft voice in my head whispers “stay”
Stay!?
For what?
For whom?
Why should I stay
In a world ungrateful for all my good deeds
A world where my sexuality is a joke
A world where my gender and color make me inferior
A world in which I am but a spec
Who cares if I stay?
Clearly no one
For there is no one by my side
Right now as I prepare to die
No one holding my hand
No one offering their shoulder for me to cry
No one comforting me
No one to tell me its going to be fine
I was there for them when they had the pettiest issues
Or needed small favors
I did it all with a smile
Where are they now
When my life hangs by a string
Ready to snap any minute
‘You see’ I say to the voice in my head
Let me go. No one cares if I stay
‘But you matter’ the voice responds
‘You are in this world for a purpose
Which you must fulfill
Even if you are on your own’
I sway
My knees can’t bear the weight
Of all that’s in my head
My eyes can’t see anymore, my hands shake
My sense giving up with my heart
‘Stay’ the voice says ‘Please’
‘I cant’ I say as my feet part with the sill
I tried
I tried
I say
As my body reached the grave
I tried hard
I tried long
But I am sorry
I wasn’t brave enough to fight my way out of the darkness
Or stay
I tried
I tried
Copyright © Srishti Singh | Year Posted 2019
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Srishti Singh Poem
I still remember that day
When we were two strangers on a bus
In a city where we didn’t belong
On a journey unmapped
A destination unclear
With no means of survival, but hope
I still remember that instant
When our eyes first met
For it was right then that we knew
Our worn out hearts had found shelter
Our cold hands had found warmth
Our lonely souls had found a mate
It has been years now
Since we hopped off that bus together
And walked miles towards an uncertain destination
Being each other’s warmth during cold blizzards
Quenching each other’s thirsts during heat waves
Stealing kisses, laughing together, holding hands, making love
Unbothered by all the hardships around
After years of travelling the world
We ended up in the same city where we first had met
But this time feeling so happy and satisfied
We sat on the same bus
And it was then that I once again looked in your eyes
And in that instant I knew nothing but you
Your features
Your being
Your soul
It was then that I realized
I had finally found my destination
The moment our eyes had first met on that bus
You were my destination
You were my safety
My dreams
My happiness
My home
My life
It was all you
All along
Copyright © Srishti Singh | Year Posted 2019
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