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Shelly Johnson Poem
Things will never be the way it used to be.
You’re a different you and I’m a different me.
Time has a way of changing everything we know.
They say that it’s the way we’re supposed to learn and grow.
Sometimes it feels like my life has been cursed.
Some for the better and some for the worst.
I believe that’s it’s time we both face the fact.
What we had before, we will never get back.
No, things between us won’t ever be the way they used to be.
You’ve become a new you and I’ve become a new me.
Copyright © Shelly Johnson | Year Posted 2023
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Holidays haven't been the same since momma passed away.
The joy and love our family had was stolen all away.
Her favorite time was Christmas time, It always seemed to me.
She loved to wrap the presents and decorate the tree.
My daddy went to be with her just the other day.
They will spend Christmas together this year, At least that's what I pray.
It's never gonna be the way it used to be.
We won't have momma's cooking, And I can't decorate a tree.
They at least won't have any pain this year and there won't be any sorrow.
All that was yesterday and we are praying for tomorrow.
Copyright © Shelly Johnson | Year Posted 2019
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I hear the wisdom in her words and the pain in her voice.
This isn't where she saw her life because she didn't have a choice.
I see the youth in her face and the age when she speaks to me.
She only ended up like this way because life turned her you see.
Never feeling like she truly had a place on Earth.
She has felt like this since day one when her mom gave birth.
Life made her learn how to just survive.
It taught her we aren't living just because we are alive.
The air we breathe doesn't mean anything if we don't enjoy each breath we take.
I wonder about the changes her life is going to make.
She has been raped and beaten and she still stands tall.
She holds her high because by herself she survived it all.
She made one choice along this journey called life.
It was the most important choice she would make to end her strife.
She wasn't a victim of her circumstance.
She decided to be a survivor because she chose to stop and dance.
She chose to make the most life and feel blessed 'cause she's alive.
She wants to make the most of life instead of just survive.
Copyright © Shelly Johnson | Year Posted 2019
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I can't handle this pain anymore,
My ribs are broken and my neck is sore.
You always call me out of my name,
You say it's my fault and I'm to blame.
If this is what love is you can have it all back.
I'm afraid this train has gone off track.
I'm done with the misery, I can't take anymore pain.
I know what you've lost and what I'm going to gain.
So many hurtful things said and done.
I was truly praying you were "the one".
I had your back when no one else would.
You only did this because you thought you could.
So I'm saying you for what you have done.
It's time I focus on my son.
So I'll say it louder for the ones in the back.
You said me so YOU right back!!!
Copyright © Shelly Johnson | Year Posted 2019
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Shelly Johnson Poem
Why am I the only soldier fighting in this war?
Can anybody tell me what I have been fighting for?
I have decided I need a break to do some self reflection.
All I have ever wanted is love, loyalty, and a little affection.
He acts like I am not even worth arguing for,
So why am I the only soldier in this war?
I am a P.O.W and nobody seems to care.
Don't they understand this pain is becoming to hard to bare?
I am starting to feel like I am the lone ranger,
I swear the man I fell in love with has become nothing but a stranger.
I don't want to be the one to walk away.
If he would just give me a sign that he wants me to stay.
I can't keep being the only soldier in this war.
My wounds are so deep and I can't take the pain anymore.
Copyright © Shelly Johnson | Year Posted 2022
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Because of you, I have seen more sorrow than happiness.
I have cried more than I've laughed.
I have lost more than I've gained.
Because of you, I have hurt more than I've helped.
I have damaged more than I've repaired.
I have let down more than I've built up.
Because of you, I have failed more than I've triumphed.
I forgot who I was and became someone I hate.
I lost sight of the things that were important and neglected my responsibilities.
Because of you, I have caused disappointment and doubt.
The reflection in the mirror no longer looks the same.
I look at myself and feel hatred and disgust.
All of these things happened, Because of you!
Because of you, I am stronger.
I know what it's like to lose everything and everyone I ever loved.
My son knows what it's like to live with addiction.
Because of you, I have learned to never take things for granted.
I have had to look inside myself for the person I used to be.
I will know how to help others that have met your demise.
Because of you, I will become better, stronger, and wiser than I ever thought possible.
All of these things happened, Because of you!
Copyright © Shelly Johnson | Year Posted 2021
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I think it's time we go our separate ways.
Lately we have more bad than good days.
You say I have changed and maybe that's true,
But I'm not alone because you have changed too.
All these years I never saw this part of you.
I've heard about it from girls before and told them it wasn't true.
What happened inside your head?
Is it psychological or spiritual instead?
I think it's time we go our separate ways.
Lately we have more bad than good days.
You always accuse with no evidence to show.
I feel we need to face the truth and let each other go.
You have told me that life with me is hell.
You are miserable with me I can tell.
This isn't good for either of us to keep fighting like we do.
It's going to get real bad someday.
Either you're going to hurt me or I'm going to hurt you.
I think it's time we say goodbye and go our separate ways.
Lately we have more bad than good days.
Copyright © Shelly Johnson | Year Posted 2021
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Daddy was my hero.
My very own superman.
He was my judge, my jury, and my biggest fan.
My dad was an amazing man.
He was my son's papa and his very best friend.
Two peas in a pod from beginning to end.
It all seems like a horrible dream.
It's hard to breathe and I wanna scream.
I can feel my heart breaking and it hurts really bad.
God already took my mom why did he have to take dad.
God must have saw that he was tired and needed to rest.
So God called him home because father knows best.
I'm going to make you proud like I said I would do.
Never forget how much I LOVE YOU!
Copyright © Shelly Johnson | Year Posted 2019
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Everyday I battle the demons that live inside my head.
They don't go a day without trying to convince me,
That I am worthless, unloved, and better off dead.
There are some days when they almost get me to crumble and fall.
Almost believing the lies they try to sell me and just end it all.
Almost believing I will never be wanted or loved,
Feeling like their words seem to fit like a glove.
Those are the days when just smiling is a chore.
Wanting so badly to cry in my room behind my locked door.
My biggest fight is holding it all in and not letting the hurt show.
Screaming at the demons to just let me go.
So if by chance I forget that nobody knows,
And I just let my pain show.
Please remember that I have been holding onto these feelings like a diamond inside coal.
The hurt you see on my face isn't half as bad as The Pain Inside My Soul!
Copyright © Shelly Johnson | Year Posted 2022
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It amazes me how soft spoken people get when they don't know what to say.
Especially when emotions come and start to get in the way.
Like when a couple knows they are best to say goodbye.
Neither one will say it because it means they didn't try.
It amazes me how people are afraid of how they feel inside. Instead of saying I love you they would rather try to hide.
Behind closed doors where nobody can see,
With tear-filled eyes they ask themselves what is wrong with me.
It amazes me how a rock-solid bonds can disappear just like that.
A lifetime of memories is other amines and you wonder they are now and where they are at.
It amazes me how families Fall Apart.
They turn their back so easily like they never had a heart.
So many words left unsaid,
But then want to say I'm when the other person is dead. Kurt
Copyright © Shelly Johnson | Year Posted 2021
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