I find myself remembering,
my sixteenth year of life.
It seemed like we were the only people in the world,
driving home at so late at night.
That’s when most of our conversations happened,
discussing the future, life and the unknown.
The things that scared us, the things we loved,
We’d always come to a conclusion all our own:
You'd stare at me with your green eyes,
and then you'd smirk and say,
"We’ll help each other through".
Well where are you now? How will I get through today?
I need some help right now.
Life leaves me speechless and without a clue.
My heart's still in pieces..
What I wouldn’t give to love someone as much as I loved you.
I feel like I'm unfixable,
like my heart is stitched up tight.
I feel like I'm uncapable of love,
even if I tried, with all my might.
Categories:
uncapable, lossme,
Form: Rhyme
A part of me lives in darkness,
Afraid to come out, thinking it's useless,
Useless to live a life,
Even if there is no strife.
Confliicts surround us no matter where we go.
While you think things will be pure as snow.
I think of all the negativity,
Not always thinking of the purity.
"No outcome is good" I think.
I tell myself my life is down the sink.
Drained of all the sureness,
A part of me lives in darkness.
I feel so uncapable,
Like I've never been stable;
Stable to think things good,
I'd sneak out and roam the neighborhood.
A part of me lives in darkness,
Never having awareness.
What will the out come be?
I don't know, I don't take the time to see.
They tell me I know better,
But then I'd feel "under the weather".
A part of me lives in darkness,
Feeling like it's useless.
I'd end up rebelling,
feeling like my mind is swelling.
Chaos turning around and around me,
Like it knows no boundry.
Darkness...Darkness...Darkness
Categories:
uncapable, confusion, depression, life, loss,
Form: Rhyme
Eyes glued firmly open, awake, I
Watched the time slipping quickly by
Frightened,fear touched me, softly from a distance
Was not long now, until our goodbye
Couldnt close my eyes. Couldnt fall asleep
For tomorrow would come as fast as a bomb
My body tried to prepare to be shattered into poeces
To be cold, empty and alone once again.
Morning exploded into my senses. I could not
Use any. Numb, everywhere inside and then
Evil hands forced us to seperate
Snatched away, uncapable of anything.
Pain. Emptiness.Loneliness. Felt it all.
I was not properly prepared for the fall.
Crying inside, noone to hear but you
My heart bled continously; teared into two.
My heart will always be with you. Only you
Could make everything OK.We just had to remember
And were happy for the moments we shared.
Sweet Sweet memories let me dream
Now i need you more than ever, Wearing
You close to me, smelling, feeling your presence here
But i'll continue to exist without you here
Clinging on to your heart you left with me.
I wrote this for my wonderful Demetris,when we were in our long distance
relationship.
Categories:
uncapable, love, people, time, heart,
Form: Personification
I'm tired of this
I've lived too long under your spell
I'm tired of your childish fits
Damn you to hell
I'm taking a stand tonight
You're not gonna stop me leaving
I'm tired of our endless fights
You're lucky I'm leaving you breathing
Don't tell me you're sorry
It won't help your case
It's too late honey
I'm tired of the way you behave
I was stupid for thinking
That I saw something in you
Because you're uncapable of loving
Anyone but you
Categories:
uncapable, husband, life, social, wife,
Form: I do not know?
Why are you not by my side?
I told you I need you, I'm not alright
I'm aching inside and in need of a friend
For the strength to win in this fight
With you near I could breakdown
Since you're not here I'll have to wait
Pray that i'll get better
At the moment, I'm not so great
Are you not here for a reason?
Why did you go away?
Why aren't you here with me
to make everything o.k.?
If it was unneccesary I would never ask
for you to help find a way for me to deal
A way to cope with what has happened
Along with the emotions that I feel
Would you please lend me a hand?
I can not do this on my own
Are you going to help me?
I'm uncapable of handling this alone.
Categories:
uncapable, death, life, loss, lost
Form: I do not know?