Short Begrudgingly Poems

Life is like
a blank page 
roughly wrinkled 
in withering white.
Begrudgingly 
bearing it’s 
abandoned
brand of 
belittlement .
Which only can
be broken 
by the olden
unspoken truths 
lying in between 
the written words 
of humanity’s 
harrowing hand ....

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Not a sheep
Nor do I bleat
Yet you ask of me to follow
What it is you say
I quietly push away
Begrudgingly however
I appear to walk the same way.
Afraid to speak
For anger rises to a peak
Therefore I reluctantly pretend to be a sheep
And it seems as though I bleat....

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The subtle breeze brings memories of fall on this late, summer day...

A reminder that time is passing at an alarming rate...

Desperately clinging to each moment as it slips away...

Always knowing there's no escaping fate...

Begrudgingly hiding in the hall; in the room...

Always knowing there's no escaping hate......

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Evenfall
       welcomes twilight,
           whereas
              a sanguine sun
                 slowly starts setting;
                  coloring
                   blue skies
                   and white clouds,
                  blood red,
                 or cotton
               candy pink,
            as its dying rays
          begrudgingly give way
        to
ebony shadows....

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Begrudging Enabler

Why do you do this to yourself?
Maybe a better question is
why do I allow you to do this
to yourself?

I have been your enabler.
If you ask me to go get your
poison I will begrudgingly
oblige, helping you to kill
yourself.

After I give you the goods
I will walk away feeling like
crap about it, dreaming
of the day that I have the
courage to tell you no...

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Love Yourself 2

Non-competitive Version.

Who Else Knows 
Absolutely Everything?

(About You...?)
 
Down To The Tiniest 
Infinitely Changing Quantum Detail?
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And Up To The Endless Cosmic Performance 
Of Your Entire View?

Just Try It.
It All Loves You.

Even The Clouds.

Grudgingly or Begrudgingly... Lol.

Who Do I Know?

-Gray Squirrel

05-18-2025...

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Anticipating awesome antics, anteaters amend aliveness
Bumblebee beauties begrudgingly believing bouncy buttercups
Conniving clovers clandescently collect curious conversations
Diabolical devilish daffodils delight in damsel’s dainty dancing.
Enthusiastic elves effortlessly extricate eel’s elongated excitement
Ferociously friendly flora and fauna faeries forever frolicking,
Grousing glowing gargoyles grumble and gripe grievously...

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She passes me in the hall without a glance…
Major changes have occurred…
I confronted her with the lack of love…
And she begrudgingly concurred…
Is all lost? Is her friend, the stranger to blame? 
Do I let her have her fun, and hope one day things will be the same? 
Lord knows I’ve done some terrible wrongs…
I carry enough regrets for a great country song…
Is this the heavy cross I am to bare?
I guess in love and war, fair is fair…...

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Everyone means what they say
But only for the span of a day
Before they forget and move on
And leave you forgotten

Everyone has good intentions
Until they really want something
And will do anything to get it
Ignoring all other reason

Everyone wants to help you out
But they all disappear
Like snow in the fall
It barely even sticks

So I move on begrudgingly 
Not trusting a single soul
But the one that is inside me
Because everyone means well

Only for a day...

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Yes you hurt me
Did you do it intentionally 
Did you disregard my feelings 
Because it was only you
You wanted to please
Did it make you feel stronger
A matter of you are right
I was wrong
Did you try to prove a point
Only to realize with me genuinely 
I don't think 
You ever really belonged
I forgive you
I release you eleven times over to myself 
I will not carry bitterness or anger
Allowing myself to be begrudgingly put away up on 
On a shelf
I do forgive you...

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