SCRIPTED SUFFERINGS
My life’s a movie, roll tape, lights, cameras, action
Playing every scene with pain as my main attraction
The life I live is more like a devilish transaction
Said I quit the drugs, but slowly I’m relapsing
Time ain’t on my side, I feel my time elapsing
Trapped inside my perception like Nathan in a steel cage
Need a time machine to go back, just me and Nate
I hear my pops tell me I ruined his life
I can relate. he did his best, but I let him down
My mind is ed chasing a dream that was never mine
All I live with is regrets, chasing shadows, half my prime is gone
No more, from now on I’ma do me now
I’m done crying, game’s over, I control my life
Chip on my shoulder, done drinking, I was paralyzed
I find it hard getting out of my comfort zone
On the other side, a sign was posted saying, “No flex zone.”
Terror on that side; a place for outcasts
My pain always feels like it will last forever
In my closet is where I found God, but I harshly judge myself
I'm breaking free from the chains that bind my soul
I'm finding strength in the darkness, making it my goal
To rise above the pain, and let my spirit unfold
I'm rewriting my story, a new chapter unfolds
I'm taking back my life, no more growing old
In the darkness, I've found my light.
Caleb Owabor
June 2025
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Caleb Owabor
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