sweet sixteen never been kissed
May 2024, 2nd half of our six months friendship.
I realised I had developed feelings,
I was panic as well as excited.
I worried because deep down I knew,
There would not be anything past friendship.
I started to make excuses,
To stay away from you by not going to your 2nd home.
I pretended to do some special projects
That could only be performed at the MCC,
Indeed, I did. Piano and computer all to myself,
There was no need to ask for time extension and,
Plenty of music and songs to listen to.
It was sad I had to trade all that in,
So, I could hide my feelings.
There were struggling, to disclose my feelings
Or pretend nothing happening.
End of May, something happened to my place.
I went back to visit you at your 2nd home.
It started a close friendship.
We prepared and consumed food, after shopping.
We also shared our life stories.
For the next 6 weeks,
I relived my sweet sixteen and never been kissed.
With all the excitements and our amazing past life experiences.
You were always on my mind,
I constantly racked my brain to find,
Things that could keep you interested,
As a matter of fact, I think I succeeded.
I showed you small brown books,
Full of lyrics and poems in my languages.
I shared the Asian traditional cultures and beliefs,
Even the Imperial secret formula.
All ended on the 4th of August 2024,
The first day of Lunar Calendar spirit month.
Now, you are still on my mind,
Mingle with negative feelings.
What has actually happened to you and
What were you doing to me?
"I like you". You said that too,
I loved you, but not at all from you.
I loathe you and I will forget you.
That is for sure.
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