recognizin’ you, realizing somethin’ more
Deliberately recognizing the sun against the moonbeams
I see your eyes gleam and your happiness screams
Into my eager ears over the years and I’m tension-whelmed with the tears I shed
Hanging at the last thread, giving in to dread instead…instead…instead…
Hangover over your hating irrationally
Anticipation with hesitation with what lies ahead and debating if I want to be dead inwardly
Lonesome and numb and crumbling at the seams
Mend my broken dreams as I allow myself to let out saddening streams
Consuming all the catastrophic, crimson remorse
Tragedy in reverse sees me through of course
Recognizing you in the distance,
Now, realizing Your resilient brilliance and woeless radiance
Glance a grimace my way
Dawn upon me no more dismay
Mourning and slumbering all alone
Good thing God is my backbone
Sheltering shamelessness shackles my bothered brain
I am not insane, even though I’m on this tribulant train
Bewildered to your liking and I unappreciate your discarding, deteriorating depression you put me through and I can’t undo the damage it has conjured upon me
Bring me to your touch of turbulentless happiness and extreme eustress
I heard you’re dying alive in his arms and I’m sad and crawling into my cradle of weeping madness, erect with sorrowful suppression inevitably
Sing to me your lyrics of longevity and lament and I’ll make you cry gladness
With rejuvenation from on high…
I try, I try, I try to heal you, can’t deny
It’s not right that you reject me so
But, my gracious God above will continue to glow as I continue to grow and my fearful tears of riverful growth aglow
Feel me echo my empathy your pathway of under-pressure, painful laughter
It’s a disaster that we parted ways and I am the master of my feelings of pleasure and torture
God will see through these bittersweet emotions, wrapping around my mind frame
I came undone the moment my battles of peace have been won with no room for shame
I realize there’s something more to recognize about your adoration and lamentation
My home sweet home is Your delightful, dreadless destination
Incantations of cherishing hopes and cheers overflow
I am all ears as long as I don’t shed these tears, you know?
Tears of tiresome turbulences of tribulations
Under the pressure beyond a million measures
I have been feeling a ton of frustrations and sensations
You’re smothering me and suffocating me with poisoned cures
Of your confusion and chaotic, manic actions…my mind train strays and goes in so many directions; I never stay put in my sacred craze
Your heartfelt, yet heartless happiness has shown me that you’re affectionate and considerate sometimes…God loves those who endures the sufferings nowadays
I’m sorry, my language of poetry is unspoken of
But, you, my fluttering dove, you have the ability to love
Love strong and belong in the arms of peace-abiding angels…He mends those who are hopeless, broken-hearted and lonely
They love you in all the angles possible and boy do they do the impossible through the Spirit of our Father in heaven and they stabilize in Your glorious timing only
Prudence belongs to those earnest in all aspects of eternal life in a spiritual perspective without a fright
Give and let live…I realize that you were dwelling in darkness, but now you recognize the light…
He gives us divine, dainty delight
As we take off like a plane in flight
And we land in lands of liberating pastures of peacefulness
We are making progress as long as we don’t dwell in darkness and be full of sadness due to rebelliousness
The sunlight is meandering in the clouds overhead
Diving deep in the dread of yesteryear instead
But, I rise above my issues and problems of plenty…tremendously looking up to Him, hopeful He’ll answer my pleas
It’s immeasurably, miserably overwhelming honestly…prayers bled through my mind and Your tourniquet of tranquility saved me at ease
Was locked up in captivity’s hold
Recently noticed I am stronger and wiser than I realize…love the awesome realization I fearlessly felt felt marvelous too
Was knocked over by the cold
Then, automatically, you warmed up my soul with kindred kindness beyond recognition…that was super heartfelt of You…
Intangible, effulgent relief emerging into sudden realization passionately brews inside me like a healing potion of devoted optimism I longed for for so long
Maybe, I’m just delirious due to lack of slumber…but I will surely endure this hardship if You don’t mind
I’m positively sure I’ll find the keys to unlock me from my inner prison of an endless pitiful mess, helplessly wanting to belong
I’ve grown accustomed to numbing the aches I did to myself when I self-injured…yes, I am in extreme need of a cure of some kind — I find that I was blind and fell behind in life, but strife will not overcome my trials that quickly unwind
Thank you kindly,
Lord of lovely Liberty
Recognizing Your way of life and changing slowly…I can’t recognize if I’m close to my demise or am I wise enough to survive below the surface just to ascend above substantially, leading me to being truly free? Just maybe then, I will endearingly treasure and seek first His Kingdom unfathomably, yet it’s going to be astonishingly terrific
Realizing that I have lots of repenting to do…feel free to lead me to your Kingdom of adoration — a love on many joyous levels…I pray you take wing away from the devils of your mind, serenity dove that I often dream of so earnestly, prudently and yearningly…that glorious day will come soon — it’s going to be encouragingly epic!
To sum this all up in one not-too-complicated sentence —
I now realize that recognize His loyal relevance and His delivering spirit of radiance
His tranquility’s trace —
We must truly embrace!
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J.W. Earnings
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