Boozing My Self Confidence
My life is hard, hardly ever does my head rise above water.
My house is empty, hardly is there any laughter.
I cannot sleep, I cannot keep still,
On my table there is always, an unpaid bill.
Each day is like a self rewinding tape,
Everything stays the same and I can’t escape.
I can’t find salvation through a bible verse,
I can’t get any replies from the universe.
No one likes me, no one seems to care,
This pain of existence is more than I can bare.
Life is pointless; there is neither plan nor purpose,
I could just throw myself under the bus and nobody will fuss.
Wait, things are not so bad now, I was wrong,
Life is like a beautifully arranged melodic song.
It took a bottle of whisky to change my mind,
Everyone around is my friend, the bartender is so kind.
I am dancing and singing at the top of my voice,
Inside my arms there is a girl called Lois.
The bottle is half empty, and my troubles are half gone,
I feel no longer alone as I save new numbers on my phone.
Lois and I are in love, am tempted to propose,
We might be happy after all, I want to buy her a rose.
The taxi drops us at my house; “Welcome Lois to my home.”
She thinks the place is nice; she thinks she is in Rome.
Fast food, conversation, movies and TV shows;
More drinks and laughter as the night smoothly flows.
Our love story seems perfect as it moves to my bedroom,
We are happy and carefree, like a new bride and groom.
This moment is priceless, forget about tomorrow,
A love story doesn’t always need, to have any moral.
My head hurts in the morning, I drank too much.
Lois has already left, and I thought she was my best catch.
After I throw up I call her, but she won’t pick my calls.
She took my money and a watch, from one of my draws.
I am empty again, alone and heartbroken.
I desperately need a martini, not stirred but shaken.
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Jack Nganga
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