I Love You Anyway
I held on all that time, believing your lie,
Thinking you were using me deep down inside,
When I questioned things you reassured me and made me believe,
That this whole time you were in love with me,
Just one question after I sacrificed my whole life,
And the response was I don't know if I want to be with you for the rest of my life,
After all the love and work and attention I gave,
Telling you and showing you my love every day,
My heart plummeted to the floor in disbelief,
And even after that response you're still telling me you love me,
While I sit by his side watching the disease taking him away,
Deteorating his brain while I sit there and pray,
Loving him more than myself I will not leave,
He asks me to stay but I'm not who he wants just what he needs,
And so I ask myself why I still love and care,
He fooled me yet I'm still there,
At the nursing home every single day,
Holding his hand while numbing my own pain,
I don't believe a man has ever truly been in love with me,
So I accept it wasn't meant for me,
I feel the pain sometimes but I push it away,
Because God has blessed my heart in many other ways,
And so how can you miss what you never had,
And I'm thankful for everything I already have,
All my family, children, and friends,
And the most important my God to the end,
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Cortney Bartholomew
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