The part of me That Never Lived
It is with tears in my eyes that I write these verses of hope, it is with tears in my eyes I climb the mountain of joy and stands on top of it and look at the distance that I am coming from; it is a journey that no one can understand, it is a journey that originates from a distant land; it takes me from the village to the town, and lead me into big cities far away from home and to get there, I had to eliminate all the fears and cleanse my spirit of all, doubt and when there was no one around I embrace the wind, water, fire and the snow and crossed the desert of the dead to live the life that I have never lived.
And here I am today on a journey that breaks my heart from day to day, I did not come here to stay. I still don’t understand why I am on this rundown land, there is so much poverty around and sometimes it makes me frown, I am in it and but I am not a part of it because I don’t understand it, and no one has explained it; sometimes I flow with the tides and go where destiny abides.
It feels like an illusionary battle with carbon oxide pumped up inside getting ready to explode inside me. I witness the season changed suddenly, snow turn to ice and nature rolling the dice, I see the leaves falling off the tree one by one and I raked them up hoping that I could compose a new song, but hope is chewing on my flesh and sometimes it leaves me gasping for breath.
It is the life that I have never lived that haunts me day and night and I sometimes wonder if it was worth the sacrifice. The mountain is still steep and the valley is still deep, and I am still in search of the life that I have never live.
It is not about a black, white, red , green, yellow, purple or the blue life; it is the life that connects me and you, sometimes it is bound up in nature and sometimes you have to go chasing after it until you find it, and when you find it hold it close to your heart and never let it go, and you will know when you have found it.
I want to climb the hills and make numerous journeys across the sea and spend hours with you exchanging philosophical verse and immerse with the universe, I want to live the life that I have never lived.
The part of me that never live is wrapped up in the deity in the skies struggling to come out just to experience what life is all about, but the silence of the night keeps lingering on but courage keep pushing me to go on.
The people in the Vatican knows how it feels when the pope washed twelve women feet they were not just prisoners in the jail cells they were prisoners of the global hell and so they moved forward in time to carry the mantle of the divine. I want to live the life that I have never lived.
I am not looking for anything big, I am just searching for the life that I have never lived, I want to do the things that I want to do and share that passion and moment with you; I want to build places and mingle with all the races; I want to travel around the world and build some companies in the towns, and open up some mega industries.
I know that I cannot do this alone unless you sit next to me on the throne, you don’t have to speak you can support my daily needs and when the day is done we will go shopping and have fun, we will ride on the ferries wheel and become children again; we will laugh our hearts out on the big thunder mountain and we will ride side by side on the little pony and listened to enchanting Cinderella stories.
It is with tears in my eyes I write these verses for you to come and join me so that I can fulfill my destiny; we can hold hands and walk in the park and listen to the music of the old lark and on weekend we will go shopping together and buy the things that we love and desire.
We will remove the bad energy from around and rebuild the entire town, we will flood the airways with love with the natural passion that descend from above and when evening come we will sit in the dark and watch the skies playing the symphony and star and the moon dancing together.
It’s with tears in my eyes I write these verses, it is the part of me that never lived and I am ready for the challenge on the next journey.
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Christine Phillips
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