A Solution To Addictions Equation

All you need is the will. Where there is a will, there is always a way. But, my polluted mind couldn't see the path to success ahead. No map exists to sobriety, or a magical compass to recovery The lifestyle I once lived, so empty and desolate. Only able to completely rely on my own self. For recovery, you need people. And, people are willing to help. I surrounded myself with all of the acronyms. AA, NA, MIA. I felt lost in the madness. A peer in recovery helped me find a start; a Detox program. These words so unsettling to any real drug addict. But, this time I was done. Beyond done, Completely over it. Their medications allowed me to surpass that three day barrier. A mark of achievement I had so many other times missed. By day seven, I started to feel slightly more normal. A pre-dope normal, one that existed before the drugs took over. But, then I opened my eyes and I saw the doors. I knew exactly where those doors led to... They led to the street. They led right back to the needle. So I just stayed, and moved right into their inpatient program. A place I swore wholeheartedly I would never go. The twenty-eight days can be summed up in one word: Reassuring. Each day I grew more confident, and began to feel reassured. Just when I came to an acceptance that recovery was truly possible. Once again, I stood weary at those same two doors. I decided to speak out. It came from a place of fear and despair. I was directed into a new form of safe haven. IOP, with an emphasis on the "intensive." For four hours a day, for four days a week, I worked at recovery. Each day building upon my new foundation of inner strength. When, and only when, I felt completely ready. I left IOP, and again I immersed myself in those acronyms. I also found a healthy replacement for my abundant time. The gym became my therapy, relieving me both body and mind. Working out was my new "high." Only this time it was healthy. Through the entirety of this life changing experience. I learned many new things about life, about myself. Proving that where there's a will, there is definitely a way. It took first reaching rock bottom, and the absolute lowest of lows. to learn first hand, that you can't reach the top, without first being at the bottom.