I've been allergic to beauty
For 35 years
In a series of diphenhydramine dreams.
Spring stings
And all of these tears
Are wearily ripening in-between screams.
The flowers look so happy,
I can barely see them.
Oh, yellowish green
Cognitive haze.
Cloaking my brain
For a mighty good reason,
These trees are sappily
In love with my pain.
On solid screen doors
The taraxacum tours
My squalid green corps
Is sincerely yours,
I'm so dissociative
That I can be you,
And this hell is
As cool as life,
It's hard to live
But whenever I do
I'm just as well as
Wherever I might.
For crying out loud
For crying at all,
I'll eat the pollen
Until the fall.
Categories:
diphenhydramine, beauty, flower, green, life,
Form: Rhyme
"Know yourself and you will win all battles" – Sun Tzu
Jesus of Suburbia, He
who hits rock bottom
with timely persistence,
gets HIGH
on the burning cross
of Drunken Hostility..
-THIS IS NOT A RELIGION;
St. Jimmy knows that
Monday's belittling unfolds
into Holsten-Pilsner-Fastbock sippin',
and something like
seven-day drug binges...
----> Still he awakens
in a pool of piss, LISTLESS,
and because the pills
are gone,
Jimmy claims to have lost
the will to go on
:{
He's done.
but. but. but. but. but. but...
The son of dusk
always resurrects at dawn...
SOBRIETY
returns to Earth
like Christ, or
the shittiest pop song.
*I should really go do some homework...*
Categories:
diphenhydramine, allegory, dark, jesus, pain,
Form: Free verse
we finally find the small aisle, the one i've been searching for.
pass the pink liquids and big white pills
and stop at the little blue ones.
look! you can get 50 caplets for $4.99.
Five dollars for twenty-five nights of sleep.
I do a restrained dance and compare prices.
the cashier does not know she holds
a near month of happy nights for me.
she tosses them in the bag with the chicken,
i jump.
when we return home i put them down,
in an elevated space - the fruit bowl.
and i stare at them for hours
until the clock finally flips over to 10pm.
i dream about dinosaurs in aeroplanes and
beautiful women drinking whiskey with me.
when i awake, the sky is gray and i am out of coffee.
in the excitement i had forgotten
that i'd still have to get out of bed.
Categories:
diphenhydramine, depression, health, life
Form: Free verse