You'Re Gona Hate Me Worse
I had problems I couldn't pin point
downhill curve drunk and smoking joint
people guessing the cause
miscalculating force
small falls and faults
and my reaction false
ignoring my voice
making undoubted noise
ranting with random choice
anything for attention
desperate for acceptance
and admiration, they claim
again and again, as though it's my game
nothing going for me and out right lame
same same repeat and remain
a desperate case, make it up
the whole time my world destructs
my world they envy, watching from a world empty
my good deeds received praise which infuriates
saying their friends are theirs and not my mates
ownership and hate cus I stole the stage
doing a tribute page because the idea entered my brain
after a mate they showed coldness took his life
and without his voice they were his boys
didn't help with his troubles though just got annoyed
he reached out for hands just to get destroyed
cus selfish aint aware of the reality
of those whom surround them who aint priority
when they speak through pain respond horribly
and honestly I saw the good though saw in belief
thinking they were good when they were not you see
and when i finished caring I could see with ease
the problem in my life was cause by these freaks
and even when i voice it i am not believed
though i can tell the story theirs is preferred to me
and their story is a shrug and unclued but purposely
direct the aim at me and claim mental disease
and as everyone believes it unaware I have changed my scene
it's funny how depression died and I'm happy
healthier than them up on their balcony
full of fake which they create with dishonesty
whilst I'm back to being the very being that caused the envy
that started all my problems which caused them jealousy
but now we aint friends I will change my policy
rub it in their face with advantages I take that were previously
in their head but not projected out by me
and I will make them hate themselves, and that will be,
and back to that me, the one they hate desperately
but I aint got no love, so now they wont be treated gently
Copyright © Nick Trim | Year Posted 2021
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