Your Distance

You were my delight my only child that I prayed for. My joy overcrowded all thoughts from that day on I burped you, changed your diapers, and watched you grow. Take your first steps, I recall patting you to sleep, Patting you, while you lay upon my chest, gently, Listening to you fighting sleep, though ever so tired. Remembering those times will be my epitaph always Reading to you before you fell asleep each night, You were more than my world; you were everything, Then you were whisked away from my life so quick. Lost I wondered within my mind, wanting, needing Almost a decade of not knowing, not seeing you at all, Missing the important years, my heart lost and faded. My child was gone from my life, losing so very much. Joy I felt upon that first day, I saw your eyes; I adored You did come back though oh so distant from my life. I was and always will be your daddy, loving forever. Unconditionally, no matter what you do to anyone, or me All my interests and endeavors are for your future and more. Many things I was in failure to teach you through the years. I was glorified beyond any blessings from children you bore. I made mistakes I should have followed more closely at times. Not wanting to intrude was my undoing, my ultimate crimes. To me, part of life is making mistakes, learning, growing. However, I failed to be there to help guide your travels. My heart, soul, and mind gave all that I could within our time. My homestead I gave, in love for you to grow stronger still. However, I failed to promote the importance of its needs in depth. Now I must prevent another failure, though you do not understand. My boldness and refusal to your desires are for a better futures end. Not to allow the return of a mistake in much anguish I attend. To allow another to navigate the abode in current conditions, Shall create more loss in one form or the other to no good ends, My standing firm at this call is in the best interest to all indeed My heartbreaks, my mind wallows in the failures of my past. I must make a slight adjustment; though understand you do not. Maybe in the future you will understand the strength I give. These are some of my hardest days of life, for your daddy knows. However, I must force the understanding of truth about life’s needs. This is just one lesson I must teach before my end, This I know.