You Know That Feeling

When it is a dark time in your life and every song on FM radio reminds you of her and you try to smile, but only frowns come to shine and you try to dance, but you fall to your knees and can't breathe, and when you look at her from a distance and she is smiling and holding hands with another man, you feel like dying! You know that feeling? It hurts you, and that lump in your throat that wants to scream, but if you do all hell breaks loose. The noose looks good today, or the bridge with the one hundred foot drop to pure concrete, it hurts! Life goes on, you must know that for sure, but when everything around you hurts and all the smiles seem to you as mockery, it is hard to live everyday knowing that what you once had, can never come again, never! That feeling it tears me apart, limb from limb, like a dying tree I lose all my leaves and I cannot bear to see myself fall, yelling TIMBER!!!! I can't handle that, my heart is glass and glass is fragile and I can't take that, for another stone to be thrown through my glass heart. .1.25.2014.