You Knew It

I failed you oh Lord. I became a lukewarm christian but I pray that your wrath won’t come down on me with your sword. I desire in inappropriate things but in my heart I know that it is wrong and that time is ticking it seems. If I am still here I pray to be with you in the rapture and disappear. I repent but I don’t want it to be a chain of bondage in my tent. I want to push forward and please you in a righteous way. I don’t want to sin against you and then think that everything is still okay. I know you love me so much, I know that I am a sinner far away from your loving touch. I don’t want to give up on you and i won’t. I want to keep fighting with you because I want my salvation to rise above the furnace of fumes. What I want to do which is right takes me to another deception of dark light. I will keep on leaning with you in love. Please don’t leave me but just hold me in your accepting hug. I need you more than ever at this time because I want everything to be fine. I want to be with you because you are Jesus Christ who is waiting for me to be faithful and true. You knew me before I was born, you know that I can be fixed and never torn. I can do this. I can surrender my whole life for you and forget my fleshy drift. Away I go in my spirit with you, all along I was your child. You knew it! God Bless!