You Have All Control

Sitting in the dark all I can do is be disgusted with the thought of you What makes this harder is for some reason I think I still love you Remembering everything I let go for you Even with the things you put me through Nights of beatings Catching other women's diseases I can't shake the thought of you I pushed it all behind me and tried to stay strong You made that impossible Your touch became cold Emotions became unstable Nights became long Fear became to much to handle I lost track of who I was And had no idea who I was becoming I was to blind to see Anything at all And much less what you were really doing to me You had so much power over my soul And somehow you still do You have all control As much as I should hate you I feel I cant get away from you Mentally,physically and emotionally you have scarred me And I can't fight this feeling As much as I've tried I find no heeling I don't know what to do but wait Wait for the day I stop loving you