You Have All Control

Sitting in the dark all I can do is be disgusted with the thought of you
What makes this harder is for some reason I think I still love you
Remembering everything I let go for you 
Even with the things you put me through
Nights of beatings 
Catching other women's diseases
I can't shake the thought of you
I pushed it all behind me and tried to stay strong
You made that impossible
Your touch became cold
Emotions became unstable
Nights became long
Fear became to much to handle
I lost track of who I was
And had no idea who I was becoming
I was to blind to see
Anything at all
And much less what you were really doing to me
You had so much power over my soul
And somehow you still do
You have all control
As much as I should hate you
I feel I cant get away from you
Mentally,physically and emotionally you have scarred me
And I can't fight this feeling
As much as I've tried
I find no heeling
I don't know what to do but wait 
Wait for the day I stop loving you
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Brown Avatar
August 5, 2009 at 4:52 AM
Good morning Ashley. I enjoyed reading your wonderful poem this morning. Thank you. Love, Carol
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August 5, 2009 at 4:08 AM
wow so powerful. very good.
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