You Didn'T Know

It's not your fault, That he hurt you. You didn't know, What he was up to. You tried to stop it Before it was too late. How were you to know It would lead to date rape? You pushed his hands off. You wanted to run away. But he wouldn't let you, He made you stay. You didn't mind the alcohol; You didn't mind getting high. Now when you remember that night You wonder why. Why didn't you kick? Why didn't you punch? When you think about it, It makes you hurt so much. You knew it wasn't love, You knew it wasn't true. You knew you were nothing, He was only using you. I'm sorry it happened. I'm saying I'm sorry to me. Because that night I should have known The way that it would be. It wasn't another girl That he abused that night. It wasn't a dream either, I was so filled with fright. I just wanted him to stop. I just wanted to go. He pushed me down When I said no. When he was finally done, Finally satisfied, I walked away and started to cry. I wish I would have done something, But I felt so numb. I wish I wouldn't have followed him. How could I have been so dumb? All I now want is forgiveness From myself and you. All I want to do is put it in the past, Please tell me you do to.