You Could Never Know

Everywhere I go, it’s your face they always show, Like a constant reminder of what I’ll never have again. Everywhere I look, I see my heart that you once took, Tossed to the floor and left to soak in the rain. Why do I put myself through this? Do I like this pain that consumes my soul? Is this all that I will ever be, I hope to god one day I’ll know. And then she lives, forgetting what she put me through, Day after day- always something new, She never cared, she never dared, To tell me the truth would have been a problem shared, And now I am left with emptiness. Rolling around in the dirt I belong in, Dirty and ashamed has never felt so appealing. I should hate you, yet I can’t help but do the opposite, And instead I am left hating myself, blaming myself. You could never know how much you hurt me, And in a sick way I hope you find out what it feels like one day...