Years of Neglect

4/25/22 Started before last October Going beyond Passover Pettiness and greed always gave off a bad odor I don't know if I'll ever have closure Rarely ever am I that sober For the longest time, it's been just me and Rover She showed interest and started to stand closer But now that's over My heart's been like a black boulder From harmful effects, I've had exposure Sometimes I am like Homer Otherwise I live life and act like Joker Always being a damn stoner No wonder this man's a loner Yet still not a landowner What did you expect From years of neglect Of course there's an impact and effect No offense, I meant No disrespect Because I'm speaking first hand Across Earth's lands At times it all really turned sad And I got burnt bad If you're sticking out your neck Better come correct Otherwise one misstep Could lead to a mess Oh heck All this B.S. continues on every sec Like chickens, people always nitpick and peck Quick to speak their mind and interject Still making threats And placing bets Because their needs haven't been met During the trek Always going to be a test Got to give my best Regardless of getting rest Got to step up and handle any stress Even if it was just a lucky guess Or absolute failure, leading to no success Depressed, yet slight progress But not quite enough to make a dent Not getting bent Like everyone who is dense Honestly, I don't need to vent It's all no sweat People still obsess About staying blessed You're beating a dead horse, more or less I paid my debts Feelings kept in check Here we go again with another pest It's no need for me to fret I'll handle it solo or with several pets Yo I got to go and jet Got a job to do at the vet I started out as a cadet Now I'm an asset Still didn't really matter when I would disconnect Too often I navigate the internet Ughhh, I'm feeling nothing but a difference I quit them, so what good will come from a cigarette It's just me and shadows, a whole bunch of silhouettes I need a lot more than a Bayonet Little good that will do, like never taking a step Because it's a pain in the neck Oh well too bad, still got to make the best Instead of relying on taking a rain check Digging deep, after all only made of flesh Aiming to reach the Apex Yet trying to avoid trainwrecks It's all written in plain text Hopefully it's made sense What's up with all these unexplained deaths The answers hidden well or locked behind a chain fence