Writers Block

my mind is a like a fortress filled with words but none will show themselves on my paper I fight to find my words or even my rhyming lines my punctuations are lost but not forgotten my spelling seems wrong but that doesn’t stop me I ask myself why terri why cant you write and I have found the reason all those people who don’t matter no mere who I have cut from my life so called sisters so called father so called bestie all of them has let me done at one point or another they either lied used or abuse my good intentions and good will I keep them bottled in my heart and mind even thou I tell myself they don’t matter any more I have now found out I have lied to myself hate and love has no place being together how do get rid of all these broken people from my soul how can get passed my writers block how can I smile when I hurt everyday how can I love when I hate so much makes no sense to me these lines still look blank I fight my inner being I fight my anger to leave me alone but my muse feeds from it if I could run I would I could disappear I would too I wish tomorrow I woke up I would be new and I can start from scratch maybe then I would have sisters who loves me and besties who really care about me my writers block would vanish or a father who will say terri I love you what a dream a dream for a fool with a heart who fights to exist I fear one day I will stop smiling and loving