Words They Can Never Be Unspoken

Your words find their target and seek the destruction of all you profess to love. Protection and numbness can be my only defense. For I have young eyes watching my every emotion, seeking comfort and reassurance from my presence. So I build walls to answer your questions walls to prevent the pain that accompanies your tongue. Numbness to hide the decaying inside. Like a beautiful flower that has been cruely poisoned, I too am dying from within. My beauty and strength will eventually become nothing but a memory as the ugliness from the inside appears on the out. You do not see the harm that you cause, maybe it's because of my walls and my calm facade, or maybe you are just willingly blind. Does the release that you gain from inflicting your frustrations on me serve you better than the love that you found in my every affection? To what ends I wonder, what road will I find myself on. Will it be filled with your absolute regret at the damage you have caused, or maybe the dismissal that it was you who put the poison there. Will I find a new normal within numbness until I forget my vibrancy ever existed. Words... they can never be unspoken