Words

There are so many things that I have had to leave unsaid simply because I was told that words on paper mean less than words said aloud. But I have so many thoughts that I cannot express through words I choke on in anger-filled moments. I have always been better with words written on lined sheets of paper and the chance to carefully choose my wording. I will always understand how easy it is to write and cross out and rewrite the feelings I cannot express in the moments I need to express them to others. Because there are approximately 1,025,109 words in the English language and I can only properly use them when I can see their spelling and know every definition to them. The fact that I prefer writing letters instead of arguing face-to-face does not make me any less of an educated person than preferring apples to bananas. Do not mistake this as me not knowing how to communicate when in fact it is just the opposite. Words can be used in many ways. Let me use them to the potential I know they have. I am not asking because I do not need your permission. I am simply warning you because I have an open dictionary, several pieces of paper, and a pen.