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Winter Walking Blues Premiere Contest Winner

Glazed, deep snow, virgin crunched under my aimless walk as I idle rambled onward through a vacant, bare-treed park. Sun was so high that its brightness flashed sparkling pastels. Fleeting blue spots danced randomly and surrounded me with images of us until old tears appeared and newly swelled. In and out, snow to house, young you and me in tender years of igloos, snowmen, skating, snow ball laughing and fighting, in animal mittens Mama knitted and snow suits tightly snug. On some far stage, I feel sure we are still close and at play, but today I have no smile to curl, just winter’s bleak weight from tons of missing and reminiscing for my ill, lost brother. Climbing a hill covered in deep snow reminded me how thick my own thoughts were sadness bogged, of love now long gone that was once joyously caught and I swear that hill mocked me. My legs moved on their own accord as memories of other hills caught my heart and held it painfully, eloquently still-scored. Looking up as though Daddy could see me, remember with me the hand holding and hill rolling he showed me decades ago as his delight from falling snow created and molded my own. Years later it was my son’s hand he held, watching icicles melt while from a distance I watched their silence spill laughter and their sled fly hills, growing a bond now many winters gone. At hills peak, I felt my aches that winter etched as pains’ crafter. Memories where finality marks each season, hurt me most of all. Mark Toney's 2019 Poetry Marathon Qualifiers' Placement January 11, 2018

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Date: 4/21/2019 3:18:00 PM
Caycay, I'm proud of you for doing well in the contest. And you used your number one poem at the end of the marathon. So glad for that. It shows off your talent beautifully. Congrats, dear friend. Soupmail for you.
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Date: 4/20/2019 11:32:00 PM
Back with more congrats on this awesome poem and your high placement in this marathon contest, CayCay.
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Date: 4/20/2019 4:40:00 PM
CayCay, after 122 days, 27 contests, and 945 submitted poems, you have won 13th PLACE overall in my 2019 Poetry Marathon Contest!!! Kudos to you for your well-deserved win! ~Mark
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Date: 3/12/2019 2:49:00 PM
Deeply moving poem. Congrats on your win!
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Date: 3/4/2019 4:17:00 AM
Looking back on old memories can be sad and beautiful at the same time. You have expressed that so beautifully with this captivating poem! Congrats! Well deserved!
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Caycay Jennings
Date: 3/4/2019 6:23:00 PM
Thank you so much, Wren. I am absolutely delighted to have thus placed - just found out today. I loved reading your comments and appreciate having them. All the best ... CayCay
Date: 3/3/2019 1:49:00 PM
Thank you for sharing such moving moments with us CayCay and many congratulations on such a well-deserved win.
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Caycay Jennings
Date: 3/4/2019 6:27:00 PM
Wendy - how sweet your comments are! I loved reading them and thank you for them, they mean a lot to me. All the best ... CayCay
Date: 3/3/2019 1:34:00 PM
aha, you used a FAVE of mine in his contest and you won big. Always listen to me, Caycay . I know quality when i see it!! Way to go , lady, on your Top SPOT!
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Date: 3/4/2019 6:29:00 PM
es, Andrea - Look what happens when I listen to my friend! I love ya for a million and three reasons now. I just found out about placing, kept trying to clear my eyes when I saw I was at the top of the list - never expected that, but I love it, embrace it and I'll take it! Love you ... CayCay
Date: 3/3/2019 11:59:00 AM
CayCay, what a compelling write! "...winter's bleak weight from tons of missing and reminiscing..." "deep snow reminded me of how thick my own thoughts were sadness bogged..." A Fav for me. Congratulations on your first-place win on Mile 21 of my 2019 Poetry Marathon Contest! Thank you so much for supporting my contests. By continuing to place in the contests you are accumulating points toward the final. ~Mark
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Date: 3/4/2019 3:05:00 PM
Oh, my - it's 3/5 and I just found out that I placed, then further found out that I got the Gold - I got the Gold, I got the Gold... Mark, I've been happy just to place so now I am ecstatic to have placed first. If not for the opportunities provided by you, this would never have happened - so, I CANNOT thank you enough! So glad you didn't take bait in any blogs taking digs at sponsors - I admired that I didn't see you respond (I think you know what I'm referring to). I think you're one of the best sponsors, and, yes, I've thought that all along, not just a 'today' thought. Thank you, again! All the best ... CayCay
Date: 3/3/2019 11:56:00 AM
What an exceptional write CayCay. I was drawn in more with each image. These are words that prompted my question, "If a picture is worth a thousand words, can't a poem be worth a thousand pictures?" This perhaps even more that linger in both the past and present. Thank you for this poignant capture of emotions.
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Caycay Jennings
Date: 3/4/2019 6:35:00 PM
I love the originality of your comment, but before realizing same, I had to get over receiving a second one from you! I'm honored to have you on two of my pages now. Your question is thought provoking, especially to someone who loves words and philosophy as much as I do. I'd say, a poem should, indeed, paint a picture(s) and/or a feeling(s) lest it fail at being a poem. So glad to have touched you ... Poetry hugs ... CayCay
Date: 5/5/2018 9:50:00 PM
Belated congrats on your win with this very touching poem, CayCay. Well done.
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Caycay Jennings
Date: 3/4/2019 6:30:00 PM
You are very sweet, Line - thank you for comments that I dearly appreciate. All the best ... CayCay
Date: 1/17/2018 8:49:00 PM
Dear Caycay, this is absolutely one of your very best poems. There are more than a few stunning examples of imagery and that is what you excel at when you do such nostalgic and poignant free verse. I feel your pain here. It is so touching. Which contest did this win in? It sure deserved it. Congrats to you, dear, and thanks for your words about my "noble' poem. FAVE
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Date: 1/14/2018 11:11:00 PM
CayCay, what a well deserved win. I am pleased to see your name in the winner's circle.
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Date: 1/13/2018 4:14:00 PM
CayCay, returning with congratulations for your excellent win with your poignant and sadly beautiful poem of grief and heartache. It's a great honor to share second place with you my dear and talented friend. Warmest wishes and hugs ~Susan
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Date: 1/13/2018 4:05:00 AM
such loneliness and longing to be part of something or to belong. great poem, thank you and congrats :)-luloo
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Date: 1/12/2018 9:49:00 PM
Oh CayCay, such melancholy longings, 'missing and reminiscing' heartache in your heartfelt write. Your sadly beautiful emotional write is over brimming with memories and the feelings of winter blues. Deep and alluring imagery as we go back in time, in your mind's eye, this is a write that I feel rather than just read.. excellent my talented friend. Best wishes for a win! Hugs to you!! ~Susan
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Caycay Jennings
Date: 1/13/2018 1:10:00 AM
Thank you, my Susan. Parts are true, such as heartfelt sadness and grief for both brother and my Dad who made his transition in 1998. Mama really did knit animal mittens and Billy and I really did all those snow things when we lived ... hey, where you now live! I embrace all your comments and I thank you! Be blessed ... CayCay
Date: 1/12/2018 10:00:00 AM
Life is a season with its own sad finality, but memories linger in the drifting snow...A heartfelt write CayCay
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Caycay Jennings
Date: 1/12/2018 10:45:00 AM
I agree, Joseph. Maybe it is just me, but the saddest thing about memories is that I do not get to choose what I remember. As the past gets more blurred, that truth gets more clear and can make me sad until I manage to change my channel. I really don't know if that is just true about me! I'm in a good mood and didn't even know I was going to rattle on, my fingers just couldn't stop chatting! All the best, let us smile ... CayCay
Date: 1/12/2018 6:59:00 AM
Very emotional write. Lovely, Caycay.
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Caycay Jennings
Date: 1/12/2018 7:31:00 AM
And I thank you with true emotion! So happy to have your comments, Line. Poetry hugs ... CayCay
Date: 1/12/2018 6:15:00 AM
ohh, heart-tugging poem which takes my breath away.... good one, cay.. huggs
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Caycay Jennings
Date: 1/12/2018 7:32:00 AM
I soar from your comments, so high that I read them twice to double my flight. (haven't quite finished my coffee) Thank you so much, Nette. Blessings ... CayCay
Date: 1/11/2018 11:01:00 PM
CayCay, so very sad , but beautiful.. Hugs Eve ~`*
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Caycay Jennings
Date: 1/11/2018 11:31:00 PM
Thank you for perfect comments, Eve! I return your warm hug ... CayCay
Date: 1/11/2018 10:29:00 PM
Wow CayCay, this intimate poignant poem stirs feelings of my own about my older brother who I continue to search for. He was our savior and I want to pay him back with any help I can. This poem is written so beautifully! Perfect for the contest. Blessings, Connie
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Caycay Jennings
Date: 1/11/2018 11:34:00 PM
Emotions for my brother are emotions I've tried for years to make friends with as I give him to God. Try and keep trying. I know you relate. At least I know which state my brother is in. I hope your some day is a day that comes soon, I really do. Love ... CayCay

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