Cathy Holmes Poet Lyric

Why Must I Die Inside?

Why must I die inside?
I am crushed inside from past experiences that I have not let go of.
I have tried to erase all the things that are holding me back.
I have tried not to remember how many times I was raped and torn apart inside.
I cannot remember when I have really and truly laughed and felt it inside.
I am pressed down with so many issues and hurt from family and friends.
I have tried to live my life with humility and honestly and Love.
I reach out to people with sincere compassion.
I want to live
Why must I die inside?

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Joseph D. Chukwuma Ahumibe February 25, 2016 at 9:49 AM Hi Cathy, Nice poem. The truth is, no one can die inside unless you consent to it. The pressures of the society notwithstanding, its up to us to choose how we want to feel inside. keep up the great work. Joseph.

Warren Dickman February 1, 2016 at 6:56 AM Poor Baby!

Frank Black Blacharczyk January 29, 2016 at 9:55 AM A good question Why must I die inside' it seems no matter how hard we try we can never run away from ourselves and our past . We can hope to lock it away by the grace of God and get on with life and bring joy to others.

Punnia Viswan Bhatia January 27, 2016 at 2:40 AM what you think is what you are.stay strong and move forward...i know it's difficult when it comes to the practical part, but just try. chant "I can, I will and I must"...take care.God bless

Bl Devnath January 26, 2016 at 8:42 PM No need to die, tolerance makes a man strong where silence is the best policy. God certainly helps if everything's done with true devotion. Beautiful poem my lovely friend,bl

Iris E. Sankey- Lewis January 26, 2016 at 8:02 PM See your wonderful sharing, God's in charge. Thank you for showing bravery and strength that will see you through. We want you to live and smile and shine and reflect God's love which resides in you and me, all of us. Peace and blessings galore.

Michael Ellis January 26, 2016 at 6:41 PM I celebrate your life and your poetry...I am glad you want to live...More Poetry for us

Kelli White January 26, 2016 at 5:52 PM Look to the moon and the sun, laughter and fun, God bless Cathi

Mazhar Butt January 26, 2016 at 4:25 PM Very sad poem. I hope you will find your internal peace soon. The poem idea is good but rather sounds like prose?

Day Benway January 26, 2016 at 2:15 PM Keep your head up congratulations on your poem

Nicholas Windle January 26, 2016 at 12:33 PM just saw this brings tears we feel so much and yet say little oh so very humble should we all be the older i get the less i understand what makes us tick congratulation a fine write

Chrissie Morris Brady January 26, 2016 at 12:23 PM Good, raw honesty here. Try metaphor?

Daniel Turner January 26, 2016 at 11:56 AM It has a very powerful message and I love the content.

Poet Destroyer A April 24, 2011 at 1:34 PM Cathy ;-) CONGRATULATIONS!! on your poem being featured this week, hope your enjoying your Easter Sunday. Take care and have a nice one,..p.d

Janette Fisher April 24, 2011 at 12:06 PM Many congrats on your feature this week Rgds Janette

Carol Sunshine Brown April 19, 2011 at 10:56 AM Congratulations on your poetry being featured this week Cathy. Love, Carol

Dane Ann Smith-Johnsen April 19, 2011 at 3:53 AM Congratulations Cathy, on your poem being featured this week. Sadly, some families appear to be fine and happy on the outside, when in reality unpleasantries are occurring on the inside. I hope you work it out and can live again...Joy delights! (I went to school in South Florida with a girl named Cathy Holmes. Her dad was a doctor...my mon's doctor.) Lovingly, Dane Ann

Audrey Haick April 18, 2011 at 12:25 PM Sorry, I missed this when it was first posted, Cathy. This is a heartfelt write. I'd like to refer you to Deb Guzzi's "High Bred-Reality". Life on this journey is never going to be what it should, but there will come a new day, I believe. Congratulations on being featured this week on soup. God bless. Love, Annalise

Dr.Ram Mehta April 18, 2011 at 12:07 PM Congratulations on your poem being featured this week, Cathy

Phyllis Babcock April 18, 2011 at 9:38 AM Congrats on your poem being featured this week. Yes, you have captured the torment that lives inside. I know we all have felt at times that we have died inside. Excellent . Phyl