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Why Must I Die Inside?

Why must I die inside? I am crushed inside from past experiences that I have not let go of. I have tried to erase all the things that are holding me back. I have tried not to remember how many times I was raped and torn apart inside. I cannot remember when I have really and truly laughed and felt it inside. I am pressed down with so many issues and hurt from family and friends. I have tried to live my life with humility and honestly and Love. I reach out to people with sincere compassion. I want to live Why must I die inside?

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Joseph D. Chukwuma Ahumibe

Date: 2/25/2016 9:49:00 AM

Hi Cathy, Nice poem. The truth is, no one can die inside unless you consent to it. The pressures of the society notwithstanding, its up to us to choose how we want to feel inside. keep up the great work. Joseph.

Warren Dickman

Date: 2/1/2016 6:56:00 AM

Poor Baby!

Frank Black Blacharczyk

Date: 1/29/2016 9:55:00 AM

A good question Why must I die inside' it seems no matter how hard we try we can never run away from ourselves and our past . We can hope to lock it away by the grace of God and get on with life and bring joy to others.

Punnia Viswan Bhatia

Date: 1/27/2016 2:40:00 AM

what you think is what you are.stay strong and move forward...i know it's difficult when it comes to the practical part, but just try. chant "I can, I will and I must"...take care.God bless

Bl Devnath

Date: 1/26/2016 8:42:00 PM

No need to die, tolerance makes a man strong where silence is the best policy. God certainly helps if everything's done with true devotion. Beautiful poem my lovely friend,bl

Iris E. S-Lewis

Date: 1/26/2016 8:02:00 PM

See your wonderful sharing, God's in charge. Thank you for showing bravery and strength that will see you through. We want you to live and smile and shine and reflect God's love which resides in you and me, all of us. Peace and blessings galore.

Michael Ellis

Date: 1/26/2016 6:41:00 PM

I celebrate your life and your poetry...I am glad you want to live...More Poetry for us

Kelli White

Date: 1/26/2016 5:52:00 PM

Look to the moon and the sun, laughter and fun, God bless Cathi

Mazhar Butt

Date: 1/26/2016 4:25:00 PM

Very sad poem. I hope you will find your internal peace soon. The poem idea is good but rather sounds like prose?

Day Benway

Date: 1/26/2016 2:15:00 PM

Keep your head up congratulations on your poem

Nicholas Windle

Date: 1/26/2016 12:33:00 PM

just saw this brings tears we feel so much and yet say little oh so very humble should we all be the older i get the less i understand what makes us tick congratulation a fine write

Chrissie Morris Brady

Date: 1/26/2016 12:23:00 PM

Good, raw honesty here. Try metaphor?

Daniel Turner

Date: 1/26/2016 11:56:00 AM

It has a very powerful message and I love the content.

Poet Destroyer A

Date: 4/24/2011 1:34:00 PM

Cathy ;-) CONGRATULATIONS!! on your poem being featured this week, hope your enjoying your Easter Sunday. Take care and have a nice one,..p.d

Janette Fisher

Date: 4/24/2011 12:06:00 PM

Many congrats on your feature this week Rgds Janette

Carol Sunshine Brown

Date: 4/19/2011 10:56:00 AM

Congratulations on your poetry being featured this week Cathy. Love, Carol

Dane Ann Smith-Johnsen

Date: 4/19/2011 3:53:00 AM

Congratulations Cathy, on your poem being featured this week. Sadly, some families appear to be fine and happy on the outside, when in reality unpleasantries are occurring on the inside. I hope you work it out and can live again...Joy delights! (I went to school in South Florida with a girl named Cathy Holmes. Her dad was a doctor...my mon's doctor.) Lovingly, Dane Ann

Audrey Haick

Date: 4/18/2011 12:25:00 PM

Sorry, I missed this when it was first posted, Cathy. This is a heartfelt write. I'd like to refer you to Deb Guzzi's "High Bred-Reality". Life on this journey is never going to be what it should, but there will come a new day, I believe. Congratulations on being featured this week on soup. God bless. Love, Annalise

Dr.Ram Mehta

Date: 4/18/2011 12:07:00 PM

Congratulations on your poem being featured this week, Cathy

Phyllis Babcock

Date: 4/18/2011 9:38:00 AM

Congrats on your poem being featured this week. Yes, you have captured the torment that lives inside. I know we all have felt at times that we have died inside. Excellent . Phyl