Why Can'T I

Why cant I just say these words? Why cant I shout it out? I've never been so afraid to say it, But I mean it so much that it hurts. What's wrong with me? Whats happening? This aint ever happened before. So why cant i say what Im feeling? Its so damn frustrating! I dont know how, but I wanna say it out loud, I guess im afraid i'll scare him away,.... or he'll bust up in a laugh. I know he cares for me, his heart is big, But he may not feel the same about me as I do him. But thats okay, until im old, But right now i feel like im gonna explode. Why cant I just say these words? Why cant I shout it out? I've never been so afraid to say it, But I mean it so much that it hurts. I dont know how, but I wanna say it out loud, I guess im afraid i'll scare him away, What's wrong with me? Whats happening? This aint ever happened before. So why cant i say what Im feeling? Its so.. damn........ frustrating..... *sigh*