Why are you back

Why are you back Looking in the mirror and only seeing disdain These things begin to taint my brain Why are you back Intrusive thoughts of severing skin Again they begin Why are you back Inability to feel joy while surrounded by it Numbness consuming me bit by bit Why are you back I told you to go I knew you didn't want to; I felt the no It reverberated through my bone Leaving me feeling oh so hollow But now you are back And I feel everything that I lack I feel it tenfold And nothing can hold Me together again Sadness begins to pour Over the edges of my soul Drowning until I'm left in this blackhole I'm scared. I'm scarred. My vision's gone black All from the fear that you might be back.