Why

I still hear the stray cat clink of your teeth smell a rage a brewing feel tension build as we sit silent frozen porcelain figurines emotionally hollow fragile about to crack like ice on the drivers side window front seat getting cold wipers counting silent pauses conversation, stalled making life changing decisions someones future hanging on words that will not come out no matter how I try stuttering explanations about wa wa wa....why? why I did it why it happened what your gonna do about it how you gonna seek your revenge when can I expect retribution how long will it take my flesh to heal are plaster casts biodegradable? is there gonna be a police report are they gonna arrest me for your violence might they be serving baloney sandwiches who will post my bond? will I be to macho to tell Officer Friendly would he even believe me? searing into my torso then memory a drifting apart like a parent and child awaiting the smash the smash