Why

Why do i feel so hopeless? why do i always feel the need for a friend? why cant i just find someone to rely on? someone i can call a friend. i feel so lost, so incomplete. why though? i have everything i really need. except my family, they say they're there through thick and thin, but theres something missing deep within. i can tell i cant depend on anyone of them. i need to be taken care of, i need someone to love me, someone to truly be aware of me. because this feeling of loneliness, makes me so weak and empty, and no one could ever fill that place, except my family. so, why then don't i have them? why are they alive and ignoring me? maybe thats why I'm so unhappy.