Who's To Blame?

out of your reach unable to breach the walls of my heart dont wanna have a part soft dark and dreamless all alone in my loneliness feel like my heads banging against the wall no love no hate or feelings at all but I cant ignore what Im living for wanna be anywhere but here gotta get out to escape the fear no worries no pain no love no hate nothing you can say can recreate anything that was or is here I refuse to cry and shed any tears nothing will ever ever be the same but the question is whos to blame?